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I’ve lost track of how long I’ve been using with a few spurts of sleep here and there. Fortunately I was able to sleep the last two nights in a row. I’m fluctuating between enjoying myself and absolute misery. If I don’t stop soon I’ll be stuck in psychosis. I’m currently being manipulated in some sort of mind game. It’s. Fun and makes life interesting but if I continue to play it will ruin me. I’m losing faith in myself to beat the game and to be able to quit using.
I’m sure none of this makes sense but that’s cus I’m dumb and high on meth.
I miss the old me before I first got high. I thought I hated that version of myself but I’d choose them over me any day. I’m learning a lot about myself though. I’ve learned that I’m not a very good person. I’m not evil but I’m bad and stupid. Weak minded, hypocritical and have loose morals. …. To be continued, hopefully