u/Unlikely-Ins3ct

I gave a BJ for the first time! Some guy my age (18 cis male) that met up with me in my car. Was super sweet but pretty nervous (I was too lol). Not exactly my type but I honestly was very horny and didn’t care.
We started to kiss / make out and tbh that was my first time kissing someone, it’s not that fun (or at least it wasn’t with this guy)
Then we jerked off next to each other and I asked if he wanted me to suck him and he said sure so I did, his precum was salty, he seemed to enjoy it well enough he was cursing and grunting and moaning so… good news for me lol. He didn’t cum in my mouth cause I pulled off to breathe and he started stroking himself and came like… a tiny teaspoon amount (idk if that’s normal) and then apologized and said he was nervous.
I assured him it was no problem and I had to leave for work so we said bye and I drove off.
He didn’t smell bad or anything but I’m pretty sensitive to smells in a sensory way so it kind of bothered me that I could still smell him in my car/on my clothes when I went to work but that’s a me problem lol.
Anyway, not a bad first sexual experience, wasn’t like earth shatteringly amazing or anything but also wasn’t horrible so can’t complain.

This is sort of embarrassing but, for context, I’m an 18 y/o trans guy. Never dated or been in any romantic or sexual relationship because I spent like 80% of my life thinking my only future could be as a straight woman and I was turned off by the idea of being in that kind of relationship, now though I’m on T for about three months and I’m so fucking horny it’s not even funny. I am DESPERATE for men. I want to be a gay man and be a slutty bottom and suck cock and have a man see me as his beautiful submissive boy.

Im at a point in life right now where I don’t really want a committed romantic relationship/partner cause I’m going to college in like two months and want to have the freedom to date there.
BUT I am horny. Like Jesus Christ I am desperate. (I’ve been on T like three months) I got on sniffies cause I want something with less strings attached I guess? And I’m meeting with this guy next week to suck his cock (he’s cis 22 y/o) and he knows I’m trans and is fine with that. We swapped photos and his dick is beautiful and he said I had such a big t-dick and he wanted to suck it (🥵) We might do more but I’m gonna suck him fs maybe he’ll suck me or fuck my ass but I don’t know. I’m on Prep and stuff. Absolutely NOT interested in front hole penetration though (especially with someone I barely know).

Anyway long story short… is it a horrible stupid idea to have my first time kissing someone/having sex as a hookup? Am I just like way too horny? I’m worried I’m gonna fuck it up and I’ll just give him shitty oral. Embarrassing but I have a dildo I’ve been practicing on so I don’t throw up all over the poor guy.

We’re planning on either doing it in my car or in the woods (secluded area) cause neither of us can host and I don’t think I would feel safe being in someone’s house. What are my chances of like… being raped or something? Do people get trafficked on sites like sniffies? I plan on letting a trusted person know where I’m going and when I will be back so they can get involved if I don’t check in or something similar.

Okay so I got on sniffies looking to see where gay men cruise in my area, made an account, and I start talking to this guy. He’s about my age, we’re talking he’s saying how he wants to 69 me we’re planning on meeting up etc etc. for context, he started out the convo with dick pics and he was hot as hell so I kept up the convo. I send him some pics and he says my dick is hot too. Great! I’m excited. We plan to meet TODAY at 1pm for some stuff in my car.

This morning when I message him to make sure we’re still on for today he just… doesn’t respond. I send him messages throughout the day, nothing. Now, still nothing. I’m so confused and horny and pissed that I could’ve used that time I spent talking with him to meet up with someone that would y’know… actually show up.

Now I’m thinking maybe he just wanted to see my dick and sext and he never even planned on meeting up at all? I have so many people in my sniffies inbox rn just asking to swap pics with no like “let’s meet up” or anything and I just don’t want to keep sending people my nudes for them to flake 🙄

TLDR: Do guys on sniffies tend to flake/exchange nudes and then stop talking?