Just started sex therapy and let me tell you buddy I’m tired
I have only had one appointment. He seems very down to earth and knowledgeable, lgbtq+ affirming. Lots of reasons for starting therapy I don’t really want to dive into, but as I’m sure some of you might be able to understand I am a hot mess of sexual/medical trauma since before I even had surgery so like. I’ve got shit to work out.
Anyway he gave me a handout on mindful self touch and I tried it yesterday. 20 minute timer. Told myself to write down my thoughts/feelings/sensations as I go because I have the memory of an ADHD goldfish and am prone to dissociating, so I wanted to make sure to capture it.
Without getting triggery. Suffice to say I think I may have some internalized transphobia to work through. Only lasted 10 minutes before I had to stop to protect my mental health.
Last stage coming up in September (vnec and rod/replacement ball for the one I lost to infection). locked out of UL at this point but that was never in the cards for me.
Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I am so fucking goddamn tired I just want it to be over