Still learning to not hate the body I’ve lived in my whole life (41)

I’ve spent most of my life feeling uncomfortable in my own skin. I’ve never been naked in public. Even with partners I’ve always felt weird and self-conscious. Previous partners commented on my size — both my body being overweight and my penis being small — and those comments stuck with me for years. I know I’m a grower, and when I’m hard I’ve been happy with what I’ve got. Recent partners have been happy too. But the old voice still shows up.
About four months ago I started posting some photos on Reddit. The attention and kindness I received surprised me. It didn’t magically fix everything, but it gave me a small crack of light. I’m trying hard not to hate myself or my body the way I used to. It’s difficult when that way of seeing yourself has been there for as long as you can remember, but I’m working on it.
These photos are just me — hairy, soft in places, tattoos, the works. No filters, no posing for perfection. Just an honest look at the body I’m slowly learning to live with instead of against.
If you’re reading this and still fighting that same internal critic, you’re not alone. Progress is messy and slow, but it’s possible.

u/VolatileForm — 15 days ago

41M4F - Looking for someone to get soaked with — golden shower play

Hey. Looking for a dirty, open-minded person who’s into watersports and actually wants to do it, not just talk about it.
I’m into both sides — pissing on someone and being pissed on. Love the heat, the smell, the mess, the “oh fuck we’re actually doing this” energy.
Whether it’s a long, slow stream over your tits/stomach/face while you’re on your knees, or you straddling me and letting go while I hold you open… I’m down.
Not looking for pure humiliation or anything mean unless that’s your thing and we click.
More into the filthy intimacy of it — eye contact, laughing, getting each other soaked, maybe finishing with a proper fuck while we’re still dripping.

u/VolatileForm — 1 month ago