here i go again, stuffing and thinking and needing some advice about committing
every night i say tomorrow im not going to stuff myself, i need a little break, im blowing up so quick. not because i necessarily don’t absolutely love it (tho sometimes i have doubts, particularly nervous about my family’s reaction who i’ll see for the first time since putting on 20ish pounds and just generally being way less in shape (usually we are very active together, going on runs etc…i haven’t run in 4 months). im getting a double chin, my potbelly is starting to develop and spills over all my waistbands when i haven’t even eaten. my appetite has increased so much, i cant help but stuff myself just a little more every day and night. today i have kept it a little more chill at only about 3500 calories; but im about to head to the vending machine because i really just cannot help myself. i still should probably talk to my partner about this (for those who don’t remember, my partner is on the bigger side and knows i am appreciative of their body, but a bit self conscious of mine historically. i am 24nb, they are 27nb, poly) as im getting bigger quite quickly. he also loves to cook for me and seems to like when i eat a lot. anyway, i really do love stuffing myself and how helpless i feel. i also love how im starting to jiggle everywhere when i move, and my belly bumping into stuff. i also love the feeling of putting more and more food into an already over stuffed belly, and all the encouragement from yall. any advice appreciated.