u/Western_Bus_3231

So I take MDMA once every 3 months now and do NAC eat healthy sleep alot don’t do any other drugs that interact with it, measure and test my dose, etc. But still, with each roll, the feeling of the insane euphoria I used to get is not there anymore it’s such a disappointment. But overall my roll just feels like a very good mood lift and insanely more empathy. The first time was so much more different. Filled with pure euphoria, an extraordinary flood with pure magic. The MDMA still hits hard, but the euphoria doesn’t. Usually after every roll, I crave it so strongly for the following days but with each successive roll, the less I crave it.
It’s really hard to accept. I just want advice

I have ADHD. Oh my fucking god coke was one of the worst things I felt. high purity Colombian btw it was so expensive and was a literal block. Anyways when I did a line, it hit but my heart rate was noticeable before the psychoactive effects. Then i gummed some , just to not waste the little powder that was left, made my whole gums numb but thats typical for coke. Then when it was peaking, it felt so messy, I felt stimulated and awake as fuck but where was the euphoria? I was only analyzing and thinking a lot in that moment and it made my thoughts even more scattered and feelings feel ‘deeper’. Not only did it give absolute no euphoria but after the wakefulness effects wore off, after like 40 mins, I had a dopamine dip so hard. And unusual for me cause not even mdma gives me a crash or anything .

i’m also used to ritalin which i obviously find much more euphoric(dw i didn’t take my meds this day)

Idk my brain is just wired so differently. I’ve did meth (i’ve done meth 8 times, not bec i was addicted but bec i had to finish what i baught. i wasn’t gna let it go to waste) , anyways ive done also crack 6 times and MDPV once and still. MDMA was the best thing i’ve ever tried and the other drugs don’t even come close. On the first time , 2 years ago on MDMA, It felt like I was a comeplete god, something extraordinary and unexplainable with words it was the most insane thing ever. Till this day, I still would trade my soul for that first time again. Pupils were completely maxed out, not even with 6 bright flashlights (which we’ve tested) , my pupils were not even getting a single bit more constriction not even noticeable constriction at all not even exaggerating. Other than the fact that that left a residual bright mark for my vision for an hour after that. It feels unbelievable that I’ve experience euphoria like that. That roll was so so so psychologically addicting , that It led me to a severe MDMA abuse (i’m good now, i’ve been clean for 3 months) . I still crave the roll so so so so so much. That roll was so good, that I listened to a song ‘Lonely’ By Nedarb while I was in the peak, and from that day till now, it’s my top 1 favorite song and that roll forced it to become my fav song and every time i listen to it , it feels so good. 2 years after too is crazy. I also really love LSD. I’ve done it like 14 times and not 1 bad experience, just some very intense ones. And I wake up the day after craving LSD so much and that magic of the visuals. A lot. It feels so reverse that I don’t get addicted to dopamine drugs but I find serotonin drugs so psychologically pulling