u/Wrong_Internal8161

So it broke open when I came home from work, after my gf (at the time),and she asked me who (&&%#) was. I immediately knew she was talking about my coworker’s husband.

I sat down on the couch and admitted everything that happened. I didn’t make excuses or blame her for not letting me fuck her for 2 months. I didn’t ask for forgiveness or beg. Just told her what happened between January and March and soaked up her response. Of course she drilled into me how unapologetic I was and how I didn’t say “I’m sorry.” Bc of course that would have made the difference. My tears and brutal, uncomfortable honesty didn’t matter.

Weeks later as I continued to try and prove my genuine guilt and desire to fix things, something changed. I found the courage to ask “If I were to ever fix this, what would I get in return? What have I ever gotten from you that no other woman is offering? What am I supposed to expect from you?” Never got an answer.

We settled on a roommate agreement where neither of us would bring someone home. We had a great Vegas apartment with plenty of space and 2 separate wings of the apartment. I violated that agreement one night.

I brought home a girl from Tinder after a night of heavy drinking and as we walked in the apartment after 1:00 AM, our dogs went barking and all hell broke loose. We made it to my room before my ex came out and started pounding on my door while tinder girl was already riding me and cumming loudly.

She loved that my ex was infuriated and kept pumping my cock inside her. My ex yelled about getting out of there and left for 10 minutes or so to her room while I took the opportunity to fuck this drunk girl again from the side while we cuddled. I gave up and told tinder girl I need to take her back to her car where we met.

It was so fucking great. I love that my ex had to endure that. I’m so glad she probably still thinks about it while she tells her friends what a piece of shit I am.

I never realized that I was getting nothing out of that relationship. I only have. I only loved. I was only obsessed until she stopped fucking me. If it was revered, we’d rightfully assume the man was cheating.