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Personally, I am agnostic but still a little spiritual/sentimental, and I don't believe you fundamentally change after having sex or anything of the sort, but i believe it does still have significance in life and who you are.

Personally I do not believe in any religious meaning behind but, but moreso culturally or personally since it is a huge first in life, just like first kiss or first relationship.

What's interesting to me is that the concept of virginity is never clearly agreed upon, with some religious people believing anal or soaking preserves your virginity, others believing oral doesn't count, and others just not believing in virginity as a concept. What counts as virginity for me is where things get quite muddled.

I've always been conflicted on where it lies because of my kind of made up personal opinions on virginity. I believe sex falls into two categories, hookups/one night stands/grindr meetups; where there is no emotional meaning behind it but instead just two humans simply wanting to have sex, and intercourse/making love; where two people are in a relationship and there is real emotion behind the sex.

What I wonder to myself is what do I classify as virginity? I could decide hookups don't count but intercourse does because it's an emotional moment, I could decide hookups count too because the acts are so similar, and i could count virginity as being its own instance with each person emotionally, losing it when i decide i love them and trust them enough to have intercourse for the first time with them.

I recently turned 18 and this has caused an internal conflict within myself. I have not had a relationship yet but I do want to experience sex and explore that personal side of myself, yet I feel bad about myself when I do because I feel as if i'm doing something wrong or giving up my morals even though my morals say sex and hookups are fine. I've always told myself I'd wait to have sex the first time
once I was in a relationship, then if that relationship never ended hookups were on the table.

I've always hated purity culture and felt it was unnecessary and harmful at times, specifically to
women; however, I wonder if my restraint upon letting myself explore stems from living in a conservative area where these thoughts are pushed upon people at times, or my own personal morals and emotional significance behind intercourse? Both options feel both good and bad to me because on one hand I feel as if I'm restricting myself unnecessarily and letting purity culture control me, but I also do feel there can be a significance behind sex. On the other hand, I feel good because I'm "saving myself" (hate that phrasing) for someone special, but I also don't want to force myself to wait for who knows how long and not be able to explore that part of me.

I wondered if anybody else also had a similar struggle to this?

TLDR; I hate purity culture but also believe sex can have emotional significance behind it. I recently turned 18 and want to explore sex and that part of myself but feel as if i'm giving a part of me up too early, and I wonder if that feeling comes from purity culture in my conservative area or personal feelings. I wondered how other people felt about hookups and purity culture here, and if anybody else had similar struggles?

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