Feelings for my Mom
For those only looking for fake erotic stories, don't read any further. For anyone genuinely interested in what makes a young man crave his mother, here is my story:
I am a 24-year-old male who has strong sexual feelings toward his mother. I think there are various reasons for this. Beside the obvious — she is an attractive woman, especially for her age — I believe it stems from shared trauma. My father was not nice to me, and he treated my mom, who was by all accounts a wonderful wife and mother, terribly. I won't go into detail, but the memory of her coming to me for protection, and me standing up for her, did something to me. When I think about her, I want to protect her. I want her to feel safe with me, and I want to take care of her.
I also have childhood memories of hearing my parents. Back then, I didn't understand what was happening. Now, I realize he was raping her. I often feel horrible because I failed to protect her. I should have done more.
Fast-forward: my father died of cancer a few years ago. My mother, being a nurse, took care of him 24/7. He didn't deserve her care. I forgive him for everything he did to me, but I can't forgive what he did to her. Her dedication to him was far more than he deserved. My mother, who strangely still loved him after marrying way too young and spending her whole life in an abusive relationship, was left deeply traumatized by his death (watching someone slowly die over a year is devastating).
After he passed, we were left with a mountain of work and debt from the company he owned. My mom was in no condition to handle it, so I took over everything with the company. It cost me a year of my life and forced me to pause my studies, but I'm glad I did it. For me, it was a way of taking care of her so she had the time to grieve.
Another reason for my affection toward her is likely my lack of a romantic life in my youth. I didn't have any sexual experiences until I was 22. On top of being shy, while my father was alive, I couldn't bear the thought of bringing a girl home, having her see him, and realizing what my family life was truly like. I lost three serious relationships because of that. Then, when he got sick, that final year was pure terror. His mother moved in with us to "help," but she only made things worse on purpose, and he did everything he could to make our lives living hell. To sum it up, I couldn’t develop any real relationships and stayed a virgin for a long time, all while having a beautiful woman at home whom I loved, and who loved me.
A while after he died, I finally moved out, which was a massive turning point. For some reason, she expected me to live with her forever. It felt borderline suffocating, but at the same time, I understood. She is entirely alone, and I don’t want her to be lonely. Still, since moving out, my quality of life has improved drastically. I wish she could just find a new Partner — someone who would actually love and respect her. Unfortunately, we come from a very conservative background, and a widow finding a new partner would create some drama. Personally, I don't judge or want to control anyone, but many of our family members see it differently.
So, where do things stand now? I have a great sexual life today, but despite that, I can't stop thinking about her. Whenever I'm aroused, she’s the one on my mind. I think about exploring my kinks with her, appreciating her body, and giving her pleasure. I just can't stop, no matter how hard I try.
What am I hoping to achieve with this post? First, it just feels good to get it off my chest. Second, I’m hoping someone out there might understand. If anyone has been in a similar situation—if you can offer a perspective as a mother, a woman, or a son dealing with these same feelings — I would deeply appreciate it.