My prostate has healed me
So a little bit of background: I have been involved in prostate stuff for years now and have bottomed regularly (so the rewiring is basically done I think). But for some reason it never occurred to me to just keep going after the first orgasm.
2 weeks ago I smoked some weed and had the best two hours of pleasure I have ever had with my prostate, I must have had 30 odd dry orgasms, each time I came my entire body was convulsing and at one point I lost control of my hands and they were moving my dildo by themselves.
I had to force myself to go get water about half way through and I could barely walk! My entire body was shaking.
As I kept going the orgasms got closer and closer together until every thrust sent p waves through me. I can only describe it as a hot energy field emanating from my prostate and flying really fast through my body, once it got to the top of my head it sort of shimmered like the northern lights? No idea if anyone has any similar experiences to this. But I think I passed out (not sure because my memory can be slightly spotty when high) and when I came to the dildo was still in me and I had 3 more full body orgasms, which felt much more mellow but more loving? I have absolutely no idea how this works but I felt so warm, loved and at peace that I started crying.
After that I crawled into bed and had aftershocks for a while before falling asleep.
My whole outlook and experience of life literally changed overnight after this, the social anxiety is gone, the constant need to prove my worth to people is gone, the self hatred has practically been eradicated. I feel like I am finally living!
I feel at home in my body, I feel proud of the things I’ve done, I feel so confident and happy. Any time I’m in a situation that would have caused me mental stress in the past my prostate reacts I get this cloud of reassurance and confidence that completely wipes out any self doubt.
It gave me the courage to come out as bi to my parents, my mother wasn’t so accepting and said some awful things but I just laughed. It has completely renewed me and I am so ready to start living and thriving instead of just surviving.
Has anyone else had a mental renewal like this? I think if every man could experience this the world would be an extremely better place.