u/a_very_wet_brownie

I've been with 2 women and 5 men, most were white, one was black and one Asian. One of the men was over twice my age!

None were Indian. I don't think I'll ever be with an Indian guy...they're too nice to mushy. I like my partners to take me, to own me in those moments

It makes me feel feminine.

Denying my orgasm makes me feel so so submissive and feminine

I want all my ambition to be channeled into servitude, to please my dom above all else.

Maybe I was made to serve

I'm not gonna send my pics

Found them on tinder.

I've also been in orgasm denial for many months now

I can't even remember what an orgasm feels like, and my domme has no plans of letting me cum hehe

There's a deep intense part of me, that just wishes to give up control. Give up the stress and effort I'm putting in my career. That part of me wants to kneel and let my Sir, my owner take the lead. Let him decide, let him own me.

It'll give so much meaning to my life, to have a singular goal to please him. Under his authority, under his ownership.

Maybe there's a version of me out there who doesn't work herself to the bone for a goal that is far far away. Maybe she focuses what is right in front of her, her sir.

Why couldn't I be that happy and that satisfied?

There's a deep intense part of me, that just wishes to give up control. Give up the stress and effort I'm putting in my career. That part of me wants to kneel and let my Sir, my owner take the lead. Let him decide, let him own me.

It'll give so much meaning to my life, to have a singular goal to please him. Under his authority, under his ownership.

Maybe there's a version of me out there who doesn't work herself to the bone for a goal that is far far away. Maybe she focuses what is right in front of her, her sir.

Why couldn't I be that happy and that satisfied?

She would be in a place of deep submission and obedience. She would have a purpose and a goal. She would care for her family. She would be happy.