u/alexiaalove24

I was doubting if I should keep it or return it 🥹 I need advices 😭

I have a date tomorrow and idk what to wear 🥹

Today’s post is a little different from my usual ones, as I always try to share positive and uplifting messages. But today, I’d like to be honest and open up to you because I feel like I really need it.

I’m not in a good place in my life right now. I feel lost, both professionally and personally. I can’t seem to find where I belong or where I truly fit in.

I’ve been transitioning for over four years now, and although I’m happy with how far I’ve come, I still feel like I’m not enough, and that I never will be. I constantly compare myself to other girls (I know that’s a mistake), and I always end up feeling inferior.

I can’t seem to feel completely comfortable with myself. I often feel like crying, and I carry this sadness with me all the time.

There’s also something else that’s very painful for me. I’m 26 years old, and I’ve never been in a relationship. Many guys have been interested in me, but I’ve never truly connected with them. And the ones I liked never felt the same way about me.

I feel like I’m missing out on such an important part of life, and it breaks my heart. There’s a huge emptiness inside me. I want to love someone and be loved in return, but sadly, I feel like it’s never going to happen. Sometimes I’m afraid I’ll never get to experience what love really feels like.

There are days when I feel exhausted. I don’t have the strength to keep going, and sometimes I even wonder if it’s all worth it.
I know this sounds very different from what I usually share about my feelings, but sometimes we put on a brave face just to keep moving forward.

I wanted to open up to you all. I’m sorry this post is so long, but I really needed to get this off my chest.
I truly hope that, with time, I’ll heal, learn to value myself, feel loved, and finally believe that I am enough.

Thank you for reading. 🫶🏼

P.S. If you're wondering why I'm sharing such a vulnerable caption with a photo where I look happy... it's because a picture only captures a single moment, not everything that's going on inside.

I genuinely love this photo. I felt beautiful when I took it, and that's exactly why I wanted to share it. But the truth is that looking happy doesn't always mean feeling happy.

There's always so much more behind the screen than what we choose to post. I hope this reminds you to be kind, because you never really know what someone might be going through.

I work in retail and today during the shift I helped a customer and when I finished she said “thank u sir”, I was in shock 🥲 bc ik my voice don’t pass but even if it doesn’t, do u think of a man when I look like this?😅 idk what to think anymore (this is the uniform we have to use btw)