u/apexclipsp2

I am a cuck. Well not really.. I got this gorgeous girlfriend of mine, long distance too. She is 24 living in spain. I cant help but to fantasie about her cheating or fucking someone, i even sent a guy with a massive cock to text her and potentially steal her or she gets into him that she sends nudes to him. But here is the thing, i hinted that i like cheating stuff and cuckold, she didnt quiet like it. I even sent memes about cuckold and still she doesn't like it. I tried some new things to hint my fantasy but guess she dont get it. I fear that if i tell her out loud my fantasies of cuckold she would hate me and ruin the relationship... Like what should i do?