u/bbcqueen123

So my wife is shy and conservative and guarded and we tried with larger black dildo like 5x and she said only did it for me and didn't really like it prefers normal sex. She knows I watched porn which I think turns her off the idea she is against porn especially if I watch it since she is quiet jelous she thinks semi cheating by watching it although I watch BBC porn mostly. Finally after being super open she admited this when I was gone on a trip. Here Whatsapp message English isn't her first language she's Ukrainian.

I was bored, and I think we was talking about sex online or about my video, but that doesn’t matter.
So I decided to masturbate cause was really horny, so I started with just vibrator, but then deco to try it with dildo)
So I remember we had like a middle size one and really big one. So I started with the middle one, first was just laying on my back aand started inserting it inside, I was already horny so I started doing it rhythmic and faster. And then I added vibrator and it felt sooo good, much better, so I couldn’t stop😂
I became so horny and curious that I decided to try with a bigger one, and it went inside completely pretty fast😂so I changed the pose, I was laying on my side it was more comfortable so I fucked myself with that big black dildo😂 I really liked to just keep it inside and hit the wall feels so good. But I need additional stimulation to come, so I tried to use vibration and cock together and that felt sooooo good like a whole new level of pleasure, so I put it on the scale or whatever I used, and started riding it and used vibrator at the same time, and my orgasm was so intense and so long it was like more a minute long so I was continuing riding it cause women have a bit it differently, our orgasm last much longer, so I wasn’t stoped😂

That's her message I was shocked can't ever imagine her doing that she is pretty shy and reserved in sex, I feel like I can't even imagine her masturbating and if so once a month with clitoris max so shocked she did this... Any way can escalate her to saying she likes BBC during role playing or maybe watching BBC porn since she is semi anti porn due to jealousy not sure how to escalate. Not sure but it seems she does like it... By the way the dildo she has is a 8" thick Jason luv black dildo. Any advice?

So I told my wife to try dildos slowly from average white to bigger and bigger black dildos slowly added in months but she acted like she didn't like that much did it only for me. She found porn collection like 4-5 months ago so after that she felt semi betrayed since she's shy and attached. And she didn't like it. She even wanted to throw away dildos which we didn't use that much like 6-7x over 10 months at most she would push it away and try not to do it and ask for regular sex. Her dildos are two BBC ones now 8-9" and very thick and molds of porn stars. She knows I have BBC thing since said let's throw away Dildos this fetish of Big black cocks porn is not healthy since super pissed at porn watched she's pretty jealous girl funny enough me seeing any girl is hurtful even if porn. But recently after tons of talking and telling her to be open and will never judge and love her and asked a few times about masturbating since she said she would like to have sex more bla bla she admited to using her vibrator which is just small clit one and different small rabbit. She said when I was gone on work trip for a few weeks she got horny used BBC dildos alone I was a bit shocked she said she wasnhorny and high and used it missionary and rode it alone and never has she cum so hard literally said came for 1 min straight then another orgasm immediately and she did it again another time a week later. She said when she is alone doesn't need to preform and didn't tighten up could relax she liked it a lot, but when tried to push her she says I also like regular dildo but it's obvious way she explained how much she likes size so told her let's try once more no judgment and she rode her 8.5" BBC dildo and came so hard Infront of me like shaking vs her usual vibrator orgasm are quiet mild. So she seems to hate idea of me and porn I was thinking of signing her up to bbc porn sites to her email just to expose her but none have any free email stuff so she can atleast see a real BBC so she fantasize about it. Then I thought maybe a way for her to see buff black guys on IG im in need of a strategy. But has to be done ever so slowly since she is conservative and super super attached etc. Hey maybe she already looked at porn alone who knows but I saw her phone recently didnt see any trace of visiting any porn site ever so who knows she's a good girl type. Any advice.