u/bbwreneee

Sooo growing up I had a guy best friend that never ever seemed to even be attracted to me. He would always tell me about the other girls he liked and always kept it strictly as friends. But apparently he really wanted to fuck me, so decided that rape was the way to go about it.

It was freshly after graduation and my 18th birthday. We were having a little party at our friends house with a couple of other friends. I was slamming down vodka cranberries allilll night long. Definitely blackout drunk for the first time in my life, so I was gone lol. Most of the night was a total blur but I do remember getting sick at some point and throwing up in the backyard. He brought me back in the house and I believe there was still a few people over but I was staying the night because it was my friend Kayla's house. So since I threw up I thought it would be a great idea to drink more because I felt a tad bit more sober

Maybe two vodka crans later I remember everyone leaving as it was like 2am or later at this point. I was very drunk and remember Damon (fake name) bringing me into the spare room I was sleeping in. He got me into bed and said he was gonna hang out and chill in there to make sure I go to sleep. I was exhausted I PASSED out. Not sure how long I was sleeping before until I felt him aggressively start fucking me. I was in missionary position completely naked so he must have taken all my clothes off while I was sleep. I honestly remember opening my eye for a second and seeing him on top of me. I didn't do anything about it though, I pretended to stay asleep through the entire thing but let me body twitch and somewhat react to him.. it was so hard to fight through moaning and there's no way in hell he didn't feel me cum. It wasn't long until I felt him finish all over my stomach. He wiped me off and just left the room...

This is one of the reasons I'm now addicted to be raped.. always looking to feel that feeling of just being used again. I love how he just took what he wanted. Just writing this out has made me cum twice thinking back on it.

I thought there was something wrong with me that enjoyed it so much.. now I realize that he helped me just discover true purpose. Which of course is being a hole for men to use and abuse. Oh and an amazing pair of tits

Photos attached to get an idea of what I looked like back then