u/blackcherrygf

Im currently 120lbs sometimes I get a bit above around 125lbs at the most. I weighed about 98-100lbs almost a year ago and it took me so long to gain 20lbs. I know the biggest reason is my combination of playing sports and not being able to stuff myself properly with school and other stressors in my life. I currently am almost 'existing' through my parents as they've been very controlling my whole life, and now that I'm 18 they still control me. I'm sent to college on their dime, any money for food or necessities is through a card they can see every purchase so being able to get extra food has been a challenge. While starting my reddit and meeting very generous people who love to get me food and watch me stuff myself has been amazing, it's not consistent ofc and not sustainable. I understand eventually I will be able to have my own life and control my finances more but in the mean time gaining has been so difficult! Does anyone have any advice?? I don't really want a long-term feeder as I really wouldn't want to rely on someone, at least not right now. How can I gain weight subtly maybe? When I do eat and stuff myself it is usually huge amounts and pretty rarely so gaining from that has been a challenge.

My entire life I have always been put under a lot of pressure to preform the best in class, school and sports. I always played tons of sports, if mine went out of season I went into one in season. If the school I attended didn't have the best sports coaches I'd have training outside of that as well. So fitness and health has been a big part of my life and I've always been forced to eat healthy. I have ofc always been into feederism and it's been something I could never ever think of pursuing. As I got older and eventually figuring out what this fetish is my biggest fantasy had became getting too fat to play sports. I already have a fast metabolism and though I would still eat a lot Its been hard for me to gain and a struggle for a while. Having to play sports has just caused me to have even more trouble. Now being in university I'm able to eat whatever I want without my parents having a say. Sadly they do still contribute to my finances and I'm still on their cards so being able to get fast food sneakily is difficult. I have my ways though. I mostly rely on getting snacks from the store or even buying friends thing in exchange for food. I had gained 20lbs doing this before starting my reddit. I just find it so hot to get too fat to put on my uniforms, to be able to fit into my athletic wear. It's even hotter thinking of myself putting on visible rolls. It's honestly stuffing myself too that contributes to it all knowing that my own fetish turned me into a huge blob.