being clingy
hi all. this will be a venting/advice post.
so ive been talking to a domme (we first started chatting from a post i made on this sub) for about i guess almost a year now. we live in different states bc… of course we do. anyway, i guess we are just…friends? outside of our dynamic. which is okay. we never really established our relationship aside from the d/s dynamics. she did say she liked me. like romantically. but her actions make me feel otherwise. ive talked to her every now and then how i feel like she doesnt really talk to me abt anything. i mean, we arent like in a romantic relationship sure but considering we talk almost everyday i want her responses to me to be more than five words. and i tell her i dont care how mundane a day could be for you, i just want to talk. she said she would try. and its been… better but some days it doesnt happen. she doesnt talk to me for hours (life gets busy so i get that) and i get needy/clingy. i just want communication thru out the day that isnt like five-eight hours apart and communication that isnt just a sentence. maybe thats too much.
occasionally, i make a post on here or two. she sees it and i guess she got kinda jealous? she told me that i should communicate with her if i want to mess around with other people which she is right and i apologized and didnt make a needy post again.
what prompted me to make this post: i saw she commented on a post on here about feeling hopeless around being a lesbian and trying to find someone into kink. she basically was just agreeing with the post. and that really stung for some reason. like… idk. it just hurt to see that. especially when we’ve established that we’re sexually compatible and we have even begun discussing to see each other in person.
to other dommes and my fellow subs, how would you approach this? how should i change and adjust myself? i try my best to not bug her all the time and not hold her to standards i would have for a girlfriend. i try to not argue and get bratty (because thats more likely what i would do when im upset about this… im working on it). i try to not be extremely clingy. i guess my domme doesnt like me as much as i thought.
im open to hearing thoughts, just please be kind. i’ve definitely made mistakes too.