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I spent weeks meticulously preparing my plan deciding on my rules and punishments, selecting the perfect adult DVD rental shop with private viewing rooms, and carefully choosing which type of videos I will watch during my session. On a piece of paper, I write my rules to remain accountable:

Rules:

• No touching myself unless explicitly allowed.
• Must wear all restraints at all times except during breaks.
  • Handcuffs behind my back to prevent touching myself.
  • Tie legs to the chair to force myself to remain seated.
  • Nipple clamps after first break.
• Can only remove restraints legally at the end of each break. I am allowed restroom breaks, water, snacks during these times. Breaks can only be 20 minutes long.
• Write logs during each break detailing emotions, physical state, etc.
• Steps for cumming are only allowed after finishing the videos.

Cumming:

• Select my favorite section from all the pornos I watched throughout the night.
• Put on a numbing condom and a blindfold, to reduce my senses.
• Tie one arm securely to the leg that has already been bound to the chair to further restrict my movement.
• Use my free hand to use a fleshlight and stroke myself till I cum.

Punishment:

• If I illegally remove my restraints, I must:
  • Drink an entire bottle of water and restart the current DVD section from the beginning.
  • Drinking an entire bottle of water might force me to use the restroom in between which could make me again remove the restraints illegally, and thus repeating the cycle.
• Mastrubation During Break:
  • If I mastrubate or touch myself accidentally during a break when it's not allowed, I must proceed to completion and immediately consume my semen and then end the break ASAP from then.

On the day of the event, I drive to the store, stopping along the way to purchase some lacy pink panties on impulse, an unexpected addition to my carefully laid plans. The walk into the shop gives me a thrill of excitement and anticipation. I had decided to borrow a DVD each of voyeurism, femdom, and femsub BDSM. I chose the videos from the selection at the store, processed them at the cashier, and got keys to my room at 9PM.

After checking in and setting up my private room with snacks, water, and an alarm timer within reach, I strip naked and begin applying the restraints. I checked my blood circulation before starting the first porn DVD.

As I watch the video featuring clips of train molestation with four different women getting creampied or cummed on, discomfort sets in from having my hands locked behind me. The video isn't great so it's difficult to sit through, and I found myself frequently zoning out while constantly thinking about the next video.

During breaks between videos, I consume water/snacks, stretch legs slightly to prevent cramping, and write a short log on what has happened thus far for future recollection and writing this post. After each break, I reapply my handcuffs and leg tether before starting the next DVD.

The second video begins with an interview about the woman's married life and her past experience at an SM bar as a dominatrix. During this section, I applied nipple clamps to myself. I noticed precum forming during this session.

The second video continues with various chapters featuring different submissive men paired with the actress engaging in power humiliation, nipple teasing, anal play using beads, handjobs leading to orgasms, post orgasm torture, etc. I found myself squirming unintentionally during these scenes and feel my balls becoming full and hurting. The nipple teasing scenes sent a jolt to my clamped nipples. During this time I could hear the moans from the neighboring room. I felt jealous that the guy next door can relieve as he pleases but I have to go through my self imposed tasks.

In one chapter focusing on humiliating a guy with a smaller penis while the larger guy receives attention through blowjob, pegging and sex,. I become increasingly aroused but also frustrated due to being restrained. The actress does not undress at all in this chapter which I found particularly hot.

After watching all chapters of the second video, I proceed to watch a third video about a couple enrolling for a couple's spa where massages turn into seductions and sexual encounters involving multiple partners. I become highly aroused during these scenes but also worried that I might come just from every erection. In between when things cool off in the video, I question myself on why I am putting myself through this, but when it gets hot, my erection steals all my rational thoughts.

Finally, I start playing the fourth video. It is a hardcore BDSM video with a female submissive. It is also 6am now. The sun must have risen, but the only light I’d seen all night was from the screen in my dark room. Even over the actress’s screams, my exhaustion from staying up all night got to me. It blurred my thoughts and affected my will power. I gave in and stopped watching the fourth video midway through the first chapter as it became unbearable due to my tiredness. However I wasn't too tired to finish what I had started. I proceeded to cum according to plan. I replayed a section from the second video where the smaller submissive is humiliated. I wore the newly bought panties on my face, for added humiliation in addition to the plan. I wore a numbing condom and blindfold, and used my one free hand to stroke myself with a fleshlight until reaching orgasm. The condom was working. I was lasting longer than usual. My arms were starting to ache. I worried I'd have to sleep without release. I could hear the exact lines from the actress from a few hours ago. However I had to redraw the scenes in my head because I decided to blindfold myself in my infinite wisdom. The chapter was coming to an end. I worried about losing my erection before the chapter ended. I was not prepared to leave without cumming. Luckily, I could feel it building up. At this point, I just wanted to finish everything and go home to sleep. I reached my orgasm. It marked the end according to my plans, but I did not feel as satisfied as I'd expected. It might have been the exhaustion or the fact that I wanted to watch more videos.

Throughout the entire experience lasting close to 10 hours, I faced physical discomfort, mental anguish, frustration, arousal without release, and self-imposed humiliation. My body aches from being restrained for so long, my mind is filled with conflicting emotions of desire and restraint, and my spirit is tested by the challenge of enduring this. As I finally achieved release through masturbation while still partially bound, I feel a mix of relief, satisfaction as well as dissatisfaction and exhaustion. However, as I remove all restraints and tend to any soreness and marks left behind from the handcuffs and leg tether, I can't help but feel a deep sense of guilt and shame at having given in to my desires. Was this an ill use of my time and energy? What would happen if someone found out about what I was doing?

Despite these feelings, I know that I will be back again soon, pushing myself even further next time with new modifications and challenges. The thought of trying it all over again fills me with excitement and dread in equal measure as I prepare to leave the room.

I plan on doing this again and posting part 2. I plan on blocking out a day, so that I can start in the morning and continue till night. I have some modifications in my mind.

• I can purposefully borrow insufficient amount of DVD, so that I have to borrow more from the front desk later on. During which I can do tasks to add to my humiliation. I do not want to do anything with other non consenting people.
• This time, I chose the DVDs from the shelves for each genre. For next time, I can instead use a random number generator to chose a random DVD from the shelf.
• Use toys like anal plug or testicle vibrators.

What do you think? Do you have any other suggestions?

I spent weeks meticulously preparing my plan deciding on my rules and punishments, selecting the perfect adult DVD rental shop with private viewing rooms, and carefully choosing which type of videos I will watch during my session. On a piece of paper, I write my rules to remain accountable:

Rules:

• No touching myself unless explicitly allowed.
• Must wear all restraints at all times except during breaks.
  • Handcuffs behind my back to prevent touching myself.
  • Tie legs to the chair to force myself to remain seated.
  • Nipple clamps after first break.
• Can only remove restraints legally at the end of each break. I am allowed restroom breaks, water, snacks during these times. Breaks can only be 20 minutes long.
• Write logs during each break detailing emotions, physical state, etc.
• Steps for cumming are only allowed after finishing the videos.

Cumming:

• Select my favorite section from all the pornos I watched throughout the night.
• Put on a numbing condom and a blindfold, to reduce my senses.
• Tie one arm securely to the leg that has already been bound to the chair to further restrict my movement.
• Use my free hand to use a fleshlight and stroke myself till I cum.

Punishment:

• If I illegally remove my restraints, I must:
  • Drink an entire bottle of water and restart the current DVD section from the beginning.
  • Drinking an entire bottle of water might force me to use the restroom in between which could make me again remove the restraints illegally, and thus repeating the cycle.
• Mastrubation During Break:
  • If I mastrubate or touch myself accidentally during a break when it's not allowed, I must proceed to completion and immediately consume my semen and then end the break ASAP from then.

On the day of the event, I drive to the store, stopping along the way to purchase some lacy pink panties on impulse, an unexpected addition to my carefully laid plans. The walk into the shop gives me a thrill of excitement and anticipation. I had decided to borrow a DVD each of voyeurism, femdom, and femsub BDSM. I chose the videos from the selection at the store, processed them at the cashier, and got keys to my room at 9PM.

After checking in and setting up my private room with snacks, water, and an alarm timer within reach, I strip naked and begin applying the restraints. I checked my blood circulation before starting the first porn DVD.

As I watch the video featuring clips of train molestation with four different women getting creampied or cummed on, discomfort sets in from having my hands locked behind me. The video isn't great so it's difficult to sit through, and I found myself frequently zoning out while constantly thinking about the next video.

During breaks between videos, I consume water/snacks, stretch legs slightly to prevent cramping, and write a short log on what has happened thus far for future recollection and writing this post. After each break, I reapply my handcuffs and leg tether before starting the next DVD.

The second video begins with an interview about the woman's married life and her past experience at an SM bar as a dominatrix. During this section, I applied nipple clamps to myself. I noticed precum forming during this session.

The second video continues with various chapters featuring different submissive men paired with the actress engaging in power humiliation, nipple teasing, anal play using beads, handjobs leading to orgasms, post orgasm torture, etc. I found myself squirming unintentionally during these scenes and feel my balls becoming full and hurting. The nipple teasing scenes sent a jolt to my clamped nipples. During this time I could hear the moans from the neighboring room. I felt jealous that the guy next door can relieve as he pleases but I have to go through my self imposed tasks.

In one chapter focusing on humiliating a guy with a smaller penis while the larger guy receives attention through blowjob, pegging and sex,. I become increasingly aroused but also frustrated due to being restrained. The actress does not undress at all in this chapter which I found particularly hot.

After watching all chapters of the second video, I proceed to watch a third video about a couple enrolling for a couple's spa where massages turn into seductions and sexual encounters involving multiple partners. I become highly aroused during these scenes but also worried that I might come just from every erection. In between when things cool off in the video, I question myself on why I am putting myself through this, but when it gets hot, my erection steals all my rational thoughts.

Finally, I start playing the fourth video. It is a hardcore BDSM video with a female submissive. It is also 6am now. The sun must have risen, but the only light I’d seen all night was from the screen in my dark room. Even over the actress’s screams, my exhaustion from staying up all night got to me. It blurred my thoughts and affected my will power. I gave in and stopped watching the fourth video midway through the first chapter as it became unbearable due to my tiredness. However I wasn't too tired to finish what I had started. I proceeded to cum according to plan. I replayed a section from the second video where the smaller submissive is humiliated. I wore the newly bought panties on my face, for added humiliation in addition to the plan. I wore a numbing condom and blindfold, and used my one free hand to stroke myself with a fleshlight until reaching orgasm. The condom was working. I was lasting longer than usual. My arms were starting to ache. I worried I'd have to sleep without release. I could hear the exact lines from the actress from a few hours ago. However I had to redraw the scenes in my head because I decided to blindfold myself in my infinite wisdom. The chapter was coming to an end. I worried about losing my erection before the chapter ended. I was not prepared to leave without cumming. Luckily, I could feel it building up. At this point, I just wanted to finish everything and go home to sleep. I reached my orgasm. It marked the end according to my plans, but I did not feel as satisfied as I'd expected. It might have been the exhaustion or the fact that I wanted to watch more videos.

Throughout the entire experience lasting close to 10 hours, I faced physical discomfort, mental anguish, frustration, arousal without release, and self-imposed humiliation. My body aches from being restrained for so long, my mind is filled with conflicting emotions of desire and restraint, and my spirit is tested by the challenge of enduring this. As I finally achieved release through masturbation while still partially bound, I feel a mix of relief, satisfaction as well as dissatisfaction and exhaustion. However, as I remove all restraints and tend to any soreness and marks left behind from the handcuffs and leg tether, I can't help but feel a deep sense of guilt and shame at having given in to my desires. Was this an ill use of my time and energy? What would happen if someone found out about what I was doing?

Despite these feelings, I know that I will be back again soon, pushing myself even further next time with new modifications and challenges. The thought of trying it all over again fills me with excitement and dread in equal measure as I prepare to leave the room.

I spent weeks meticulously preparing my plan deciding on my rules and punishments, selecting the perfect adult DVD rental shop with private viewing rooms, and carefully choosing which type of videos I will watch during my session. On a piece of paper, I write my rules to remain accountable:

---

Rules:

• No touching myself unless explicitly allowed.
• Must wear all restraints at all times except during breaks.
  • Handcuffs behind my back to prevent touching myself.
  • Tie legs to the chair to force myself to remain seated.
  • Nipple clamps after first break.
• Can only remove restraints legally at the end of each break. I am allowed restroom breaks, water, snacks during these times. Breaks can only be 20 minutes long.
• Write logs during each break detailing emotions, physical state, etc.
• Steps for cumming are only allowed after finishing the videos.

Cumming:

• Select my favorite section from all the pornos I watched throughout the night.
• Put on a numbing condom and a blindfold, to reduce my senses.
• Tie one arm securely to the leg that has already been bound to the chair to further restrict my movement.
• Use my free hand to use a fleshlight and stroke myself till I cum.

Punishment:

• If I illegally remove my restraints, I must:
  • Drink an entire bottle of water and restart the current DVD section from the beginning.
  • Drinking an entire bottle of water might force me to use the restroom in between which could make me again remove the restraints illegally, and thus repeating the cycle.
• Masturbation During Break:
  • If I masturbate or touch myself accidentally during a break when it's not allowed, I must proceed to completion and immediately consume my semen and then end the break ASAP from then.

---

On the day of the event, I drive to the store, stopping along the way to purchase some lacy pink panties on impulse, an unexpected addition to my carefully laid plans. The walk into the shop gives me a thrill of excitement and anticipation. I had decided to borrow a DVD each of voyeurism, femdom, and femsub BDSM. I chose the videos from the selection at the store, processed them at the cashier, and got keys to my room at 9PM.

After checking in and setting up my private room with snacks, water, and an alarm timer within reach, I strip naked and begin applying the restraints. I checked my blood circulation before starting the first porn DVD.

As I watch the video featuring clips of train molestation with four different women getting creampied or cummed on, discomfort sets in from having my hands locked behind me. The video isn't great so it's difficult to sit through, and I found myself frequently zoning out while constantly thinking about the next video.

During breaks between videos, I consume water/snacks, stretch legs slightly to prevent cramping, and write a short log on what has happened thus far for future recollection and writing this post. After each break, I reapply my handcuffs and leg tether before starting the next DVD.

The second video begins with an interview about the woman's married life and her past experience at an SM bar as a dominatrix. During this section, I applied nipple clamps to myself. I noticed precum forming during this session.

The second video continues with various chapters featuring different submissive men paired with the actress engaging in power humiliation, nipple teasing, anal play using beads, handjobs leading to orgasms, post orgasm torture, etc. I found myself squirming unintentionally during these scenes and feel my balls becoming full and hurting. The nipple teasing scenes sent a jolt to my clamped nipples. During this time I could hear the moans from the neighboring room. I felt jealous that the guy next door can relieve as he pleases but I have to go through my self imposed tasks.

In one chapter focusing on humiliating a guy with a smaller penis while the larger guy receives attention through blowjob, pegging and sex,. I become increasingly aroused but also frustrated due to being restrained. The actress does not undress at all in this chapter which I found particularly hot.

After watching all chapters of the second video, I proceed to watch a third video about a couple enrolling for a couple's spa where massages turn into seductions and sexual encounters involving multiple partners. I become highly aroused during these scenes but also worried that I might come just from every erection. In between when things cool off in the video, I question myself on why I am putting myself through this, but when it gets hot, my erection steals all my rational thoughts.

Finally, I start playing the fourth video. It is a hardcore BDSM video with a female submissive. It is also 6am now. The sun must have risen, but the only light I’d seen all night was from the screen in my dark room. Even over the actress’s screams, my exhaustion from staying up all night got to me. It blurred my thoughts and affected my will power. I gave in and stopped watching the fourth video midway through the first chapter as it became unbearable due to my tiredness. However I wasn't too tired to finish what I had started. I proceeded to cum according to plan. I replayed a section from the second video where the smaller submissive is humiliated. I wore the newly bought panties on my face, for added humiliation in addition to the plan. I wore a numbing condom and blindfold, and used my one free hand to stroke myself with a fleshlight until reaching orgasm. The condom was working. I was lasting longer than usual. My arms were starting to ache. I worried I'd have to sleep without release. I could hear the exact lines from the actress from a few hours ago. However I had to redraw the scenes in my head because I decided to blindfold myself in my infinite wisdom. The chapter was coming to an end. I worried about losing my erection before the chapter ended. I was not prepared to leave without cumming. Luckily, I could feel it building up. At this point, I just wanted to finish everything and go home to sleep. I reached my orgasm. It marked the end according to my plans, but I did not feel as satisfied as I'd expected. It might have been the exhaustion or the fact that I wanted to watch more videos.

Throughout the entire experience lasting close to 10 hours, I faced physical discomfort, mental anguish, frustration, arousal without release, and self-imposed humiliation. My body aches from being restrained for so long, my mind is filled with conflicting emotions of desire and restraint, and my spirit is tested by the challenge of enduring this. As I finally achieved release through masturbation while still partially bound, I feel a mix of relief, satisfaction as well as dissatisfaction and exhaustion. However, as I remove all restraints and tend to any soreness and marks left behind from the handcuffs and leg tether, I can't help but feel a deep sense of guilt and shame at having given in to my desires. Was this an ill use of my time and energy? What would happen if someone found out about what I was doing?

Despite these feelings, I know that I will be back again soon, pushing myself even further next time with new modifications and challenges. The thought of trying it all over again fills me with excitement and dread in equal measure as I prepare to leave the room.