Not sure
Not sure how to navigate my feelings with hotwifing. Hubby brought it up, and it took a while for me to get on board. I don't HATE hotwifing. I have enjoy it with the rught guy, but it can be draining with having young kids. Also, my anxiety is bad. I honestly could care less if we stopped, but my husband really likes it and brings it up often. He so much happier when i've played, or talking about it during sex. Ive met with 2 people. The first person twice..until he moved back home. (He was working near me short term) I liked him! He was cool and I was very comfortable with him. The second guy I enjoyed, too. My body just rejected him. I had bv after every encounter. So I cut it off. It was mentally draining dealing with that after every play date and discouraging. I saw him 2 nights in a row and realized while having sex the second night, i had it. I was mortified and soo embarrased. He was nonchalant and actually asked if it could be bv. Im very sensitive. Everything throws off my ph. (I got tested so confirmed it was just bv) Sometimes i wonder if my body just isnt compatible with this life style. The first guy I didnt have those issues with. Pretty bummed he had to leave. I think what it boils down to is my anxiety and a fear of an embarrassing encounter while exploring. I just want to find one person to explore/play with casually that my body reacts well with and that im comfortable being around.🥴🙃