u/booferfloofer

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it's been a while since i posted anything (got hit with a wave of disliking my body and going back and forth with wanting to lose weight/gain weight lol. right now i think im just going with the flow and taking it day by day 🤷)

anyways.. today was a horny day 😅 me and my gf got sushi, i like 4 rolls and was already feeling full. a couple hours after we got back home, she went out with a friend and in my solitude my horny brain took over lol.

i went to the store and got a tube of cinnamon rolls to bake, a tray of oreo muffins and some mentos.

as soon as i got home i made the cinnamon rolls, there was 8 in the tube and i ate all of them with a soda 😅 they went down way too easy

after that i wasn't completely satisfied so.. of course i downed another soda with a whole roll of mentos and .. my god, i could actually feel my stomach stretching as i was doing the mentos bloat, i havent felt anything like it before it was crazy. 😳

and now im just sitting here wayyy to full to do anything other than sit here and wallow in it. 😅

maybe once my stomach settles i can handle my uh horny problem 😅😅 and i know i have the muffins waiting for me, but i may be all sugared out for tonight. we'll see though..

pretty much every day now i'm trying to eat over my maintenance calories. i haven't been very good at tracking it, but so far today ive had around 2600 give or take a few. and im only 5'1 (i know im short and i hate it lol so dont say anything) so my maintenance calories is probably in the 1500-1800 range

i haven't weighed myself much since i starting purposely eating more, since i was worried if i actually saw a number id start to feel bad and want to quit. (ive fluctuated with hating my body for years now) i think when i weighed myself a couple months ago before i started doing this i was around the mid/upper 150s. i weighed myself i think a few weeks ago (yeah i really need to start keeping track) and was 160-something. and then i weighed myself when i woke up today and was 177.40 . i'm thinking a lot of that is probably just from me eating like so much yesterday lol. i dont think i could've gained 10 or so pounds in just a couple weeks. beside the number on the scale i know my tummy looks bigger even if slightly so.

anyways i know im cooked cause i just want stretch marks so bad 😅 like every morning im checking my tummy and i just can't tell if i see any forming or not. i noticed the skin on my stomach gets red just from me rubbing or scratching it (cause i got excited thinking it was a stretch mark but it faded a couple hours later) so i have no way of telling if a mark is a stretch mark or if its just there cause i laid on my charger or something.

i know not everyone gets them, but if im actually putting on weight this quickly you'd think id have some forming already right? 😅😔

pretty much every day now i'm trying to eat over my maintenance calories. i haven't been very good at tracking it, but so far today ive had around 2600 give or take a few. and im only 5'1 (i know im short and i hate it lol so dont say anything) so my maintenance calories is probably in the 1500-1800 range

i haven't weighed myself much since i starting purposely eating more, since i was worried if i actually saw a number id start to feel bad and want to quit. (ive fluctuated with hating my body for years now) but i think when i weight myself a couple months ago before i started doing this i was around the mid/upper 150s. i weighed myself i think the other week or a few weeks ago (yeah i really need to start keeping track) and was 160-something. and then i weighed myself when i woke up today and was 177.40 . i'm thinking a lot of that is probably just from me eating like so much yesterday lol. i dont think i could've gained 10 or so pounds in just a couple weeks.

anyways i know im cooked cause i just want stretch marks so bad 😅 like every morning im checking my tummy and i just can't tell if i see any forming or not. i noticed the skin on my stomach gets red just from me rubbing or scratching it (cause i got excited thinking it was a stretch mark but it faded a couple hours later) so i have no way of telling if a mark is a stretch mark or if its just their cause i laid on my charger or something.

i know not everyone gets them but if im actually putting on weight this quickly you'd think id have some forming already right? 😅😔

https://www.reddit.com/r/WeightGainTalk/s/I84RR8FFLS <-- previous post lol

i managed 12/16 slices before having to call it quits. a mixture of fullness, jaw getting tired from chewing and just the salt from the pizza making my mouth sore. i topped it off with a couple mentos and some soda and phew 😵‍💫😵‍💫 my tummy feels like a rock right now ahaha

i don't think it's ever looked this big in my life 😅😳 gonna just try and savor the fullness and possibly pass out on the couch lol 🤤

i've had the urge to do this for awhile, but i always just chalked it up to a fantasy that would never happen.

well as you can see by my last posts, i've kinda flipped a switch and have kinda just dived into a feedee-ish mindset 😅

i finally have a few hours to myself for the night, so i have 2 large pizzas on the way. i'm not sure if ill be able to stomach both of them (i know i can do one large.. never tried two before though)

i'm antsy with anticipation now. will make another post later saying how i did. wish me luck i guess 😅😳

over 4000 calories in less than 24 hours.. maybe close to 5000 but i'm not too sure. if it's bad for me why does it feel so good 😵‍💫😵‍💫

i wish i could do this everyday but lowkey it's not very sustainable in this economy 😅😅 but i wanna do this as much as i can . i fear i have slipped off the slope 🫢🫢 oops

im kinda nervous about taking it too far.. but im still young .. plenty of time to reverse any "damage" i might do 🤧

thinking about overeating excites me

actually overeating excites me

looking at my bloated tummy after overeating excites me

playing with it in the mirror or in bed excites me

seeing my tummy bulge over my belt excites me

being able to drop it on the counter excites me

this is all i can think about right now

i ate over 2800 calories today. probably 3000, i couldn't track everything.

i don't even feel full.

guh. i'm in danger 😅

ate too much today 😅 felt really full but not uncomfortably so (yet) just everything i ate from
the day added up and my tummy was looking so round but still pudgy to the touch 🫣

i was going back and forth with the idea of chugging a 16oz coke (the single serving bottle) i was nervous about giving myself a stomach ache but i also just wanted to do it anyways cause i guess im a degenerate now lmao. ultimately you can probably guess what i decided doing..

up until there was like 1/4 of the bottle left i felt perfectly fine and comfortable. that last bit though.. oof. it did not settle well 😅 i just sat there playing with my belly trying to get the burps out but they were being stubborn. i took an antacid just to be safe, and i did unfortunately get a little nauseas but thankfully didn't throw up. if it wasn't for the slight nausea i would've felt perfectly fine and comfortable with my bloated tummy 😵‍💫

the nausea is gone now, lasted about a half an hour. just distracted myself from it by reading posts on here 😅 think i'm gonna go pass out now while mindlessly fiddling with my tummy 😴

24yr old trans guy, super senior lurker and first time poster 🫡

idk what changed. i've been into this my whole life basically. struggled a lot with shame, but in recent years accepted that this is just what im into and nothing can change it. i've had periods of time where i was able to push it away, but it always came back lol. and ive kept this part of myself secret my whole life, this is my first time ever even talking about it.

anyways... ive always considered myself more of a "feeder" ... i personally wanted to be "skinny and conventionally attractive" because when you're a trans guy, it's just easier for you when you're skinny.

i put on the relationship weight when i got with my current gf. i kinda hated it but i also didn't? idk it was complicated. i don't want to ramble on for too long, so i'll just say ive struggled with my body image for a long time, and i still kinda do.

i've flip flopped with the urge to gain weight for years now. i'll get the urge and then i'll jack off and it'll go away. so i figured i would just stay on the feeder side of things.

well something changed the other day.. ive been more horny than usual, and i just had the urge to see how much i could eat lol. one quesadilla and three slices of a variety cheesecake later, i still didn't feel full. i was planning on maybe eating more, but i went to the mirror to inspect the damage and something just snapped.

bluh even now its hard to type out lol, but i got like really horny just looking at my pudgy tummy. like i was shaking i was so turned on. i'd never felt that way about my own body in my entire life, even when i was skinnier. i took some photos and just had to go take care of my horniness. and to my surprise afterwards, i didn't feel any shame or embarrassment. i felt happy just playing with my chubby tummy. 😵‍💫

fast forward to thursday morning, i did something ive wanted to do for a while but just always pushed to the side. coke and mentos. i was scared i might throw up, but it didn't even make me uncomfortably bloated or anything. just felt kinda nice. i then again would inspect the damage in the mirror and shaking and smacking my stomach around, for me to just get horny again, and i just had to eat something. we still had more cheesecake left from the variety pack i ate a few nights ago, and i ate 4 slices in less than 20 minutes while rubbing and smacking my stomach 🤤. they were a little over 300 calories each (they're not that big but they aren't tiny either) i didn't really feel full, but i didn't want to push myself too hard and hurt myself so i decided to stop there.

i played with my tummy in the mirror again a little bit after that and fell back asleep 😅 i'm feeling kind of embarrassed, but the shame is nowhere to be found. idk why this is happening now, but i can't say im not enjoying it ahaha.

my girlfriend and i have always kinda joked about the both of us being "chubby chasers" i don't think she's actually into feedism like me though, but i know she prefers me chubby.. so if i end up gaining any weight i don't think she'll mind.

sorry this is so long jeez. just had to get this out of my system. it's nice to actually get this off my chest after keeping it secret for my whole life 🤧 not sure how far this new development will go, but i'm planning on just enjoying the ride 🫣