u/boxerpanther

Fucking miserable atm not just my DB I suffer from depression as it is and yeh the DB definitely doesn't help.

She has said no to couples therapy over the years believes this is our only real issue. I don't believe it is and have tried to tell her that. She's made it clear it does nothing for her, saying she never thinks about it, never enjoyed it as much as I thought she did and isn't sure if she is asexual as doesn't seem to find me or anyone sexually attractive.

I know the only way out of this DB is to leave, but why can't I seem to do it, what's wrong with me ppl manage to leave all the time why can't I have the balls to do it am I just a coward pretending to be brave. I'm just adding to my fucked up depression.

Sorry just needed to get all that out as I don't have any other way of getting it out .

I get super horny during the day but for some reason I will hold off until my shower but sometimes I just lose complete interest for some reason. I think it comes down to lack of fun masturbating some days. Also lost interest in watching porn which probably effects it.