Struggling with self esteem after being played for being a dancer …
I just need to vent because my mind has been racing all night. I had been dating this guy for years. And from the very moment he met me he knew I was a dancer. It was never an issue presented. Fast forward , we start doing long distance because I started travel dancing and he is a travel nurse.
He’s not even the type to go to the strip club or out in general but not too long ago he said me dancing makes him uncomfortable and he feels possessive knowing I’m at the club and men are looking at me. I flat out told him I’m not quitting til I want or I’m married with an allowance. He acted okay with it…
We planned a trip for me to come out and see him (which I’ve done before) and yesterday — just 72 hours before I was supposed to leave something in my head told me to check his social media. And the first account at the top was a stripper private work page. I’m not dumb I know that meant you spent money at the club to earn it.
And that was his response and he has blocked me on everything since.
I feel really sad and hurt because it was so vindictive and premeditated. You felt some type of way I don’t wanna quit > then you ask me to come see to see you across the country > then days before Im supposed to come out you go to the club which you never do and spend $$ > and then tell me to cancel my flight and block me on everything 💔
And he told me that after he knew I was at work myself so I was so stressed and hurt I didn’t have the mental capacity to even hustle because I was fr fighting off tears the whole shift. This just feels so shitty.