I want to buy my first... toy, maybe?
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as the title says I want to buy my first toy I only have a small budget and I still live at home with my family. I have anxiety and I'm hypersexual and I read a while ago regular sexual release helps which I find it does however I've gotten to the point where the old flicking the bean doesn't work as well as it used to and I find internal stimulation (from my own fingers) underwhelming and awkward. As of now it takes me at least an hour to get off and that's with intense rubbing that I'm ngl always leaves me with pain sometimes more pain than pleasure. I've even bled a couple times..
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Anyway ive been looking and because my budget is small and I live at home my options are sort of limited. I have found
a) a small easy to hide bullet vibrator that may or may not do the job
b) a rabbit wand that will probably do the job but is harder to hide
c) a mini Hitachi wand that is more powerful than the vibrator but slightly larger
they are all in the same price range and I'm having trouble deciding please help