I feel ashamed, crying on the way home
I thought I could do this but I don't know if I can. I just had my second m&g with a pot, and I feel like I've accidentally locked myself in. He felt really normal at the first m&g, and we talked about me helping him with his English and we'd start reading books together. Today at my 2nd m&g he bought 2 kindles so we could read together. Both m&g he gave me a ppm. But today as I left, I felt like a piece of meat, and I felt like id done something wrong, and I don't know if I'm feeling it anymore. Suddenly it feels a lot more transactional and I don't think it feels right. I don't feel like it's right to pull out as he gave me a ppm and got us kindles to read together. If I were to pull out, should I offer to give the ppm and money for the kindles back to him?