I have complex thoughts about my mother, and I don't know what to do.
So, this is embarrassing as hell and I genuinely don't know if this is some psychological thing or if I'm just cooked.
I'm a guy in my early 20s and lately whenever my mom leaves her jacket on the couch or something, I catch myself smelling it. Not on purpose at first. It's just comforting? Like it smells warm and familiar in a way I can't explain. But here's the problem. Sometimes when I smell it too long, it makes me feel stuff down there. And it freaks me out. I DON'T want that. It's not like I sit there fantasizing about my mom or anything. My brain just reacts and then I panic because what the hell is wrong with me?
I've never told anyone this because I'm fully aware of how fucked up it sounds. I just need to know if anyone else has experienced something similar with a family member's scent or if I need therapy immediately.