Hi there , A 22 year old male here, from past 2 years I have been experiencing my inclination towards my feminine side. I feel good when I think about "it would be great if I was a lady". This is just a part of my story
The real thing is , I've taken so many actions related this...now I question myself if I'm really a man ? So I'm going to tell you all of it...
In my childhood -
I used to wear my mumma's gown because it felt softer, more air....felt like a girl...
In my school I had female friends (few) I loved to hear about there interests about dolls, makeup, dresses, female super heroes. It's not like I only had female friends but when they used to talk about that topics I loved it.
At age 15 -
I mysteriously took one of my cousin's pantie, had butterflies after wearing it
I used to wear it alot , without getting caught
Also tried to get fucked
At age 18 -
Had a girlfriend in college... everything was good...did nothing from last few years
But when she left me something changed...
I did dirty things alot more dirty things
- masterbated on video calls in front of stranger men
- Got addicted to it and also started fingering my ass in front of them
- (During college used to live with relatives) brought panties, thongs, butt plugs and used to wear them daily and did not get caught
- talked to dominant ladies on dating sites and had dirty fetishes (alot)
- I also have a fetish of getting fucked so I used things to fit inside my ass
- Whenever relatives got out I used to wear my cousin's clothes (I loved it)
- Also brought chastity cage for myself and used to wear it all the time
Then someone came into my life and from past one year I'm dating her and I love her
Some more things about me
- I am a 6 foot tall, good looking man.
- Good in singing art poetry and what not
- Lean body fair Colour
- I like "dicks" not Men (I'm sure)
- I admire every lady...and I respect every lady
- I wish I had what she has
- I'm straight
- I LOVE MY CURRENT GIRLFRIEND - dates, gifts , making her feel special, princess treatment...I know what a man needs to do for her lady and what not !
- I want to marry her
- I'm good at sex (yes both ways)
- Also got pegged by her properly
And now currently I'm doing a great job...nice salary , also looking for a room
And I'm thinking about telling all this to her And I still have those desires in between
I feel bad about myself that I'm a male and not a female and I feel jealous from all ladies around me...but I love my girlfriend also and I don't like men
Should I tell her ?
How do I tell her ?
Should I change for her ?
Do I need to leave her ?