How to handle this… the path is open, but at what cost?
Me (23M) and my girlfriend (24F) have been together for a few years now, and we have a very strong sex life. We’ve had hot conversations about cuckolding before and own some BBC dildos, but shes pretty monogamous and as we got serious they kind of shut down. I accepted this, and honestly haven’t been too into BNWO for the past while.
However, things have gotten naughtier for us lately. Looking at hentai, having more intense fantasies, some light cnc , etc. One of the things she’s really into is rimming (both ways), and it’s something I don’t typically let her do but one night this week were both pretty drunk and I basically told her this is her chance to get what she wants. Needless to say she was enthusiastic, and we went down on each other for a while and at one point she got a little excited and shoved her tongue really deep in my ass. It honestly felt unreal, really good but also super unfamiliar.
Well between that and the sounds I was making, we ended up fucking with some serious dirty talk, and her teasing about corrupting me (we both love corrupting each other in general) and I made some comment about how she might not like where it leads… I joked about taking a dick, and was shocked that it got her really turned on… I talked further, about her watching a man take me, about being penetrated, dominated and eventually about us sharing a man. All of this sent her over the edge and it was really hot to see how turned on she was. We both had incredible orgasms.
The connection to BBC cuckolding is obvious, and honestly I’ve been in an identity crisis about whether I would actually fuck and suck BBC if she’s down for it. The next morning however, she did walk back some of what she said and seemed a bit nervous to talk about it more so we agreed to keep things strictly fantasy for now. But honestly, I’m not sure I can come back from the knowledge of how much the idea of me getting fucked and dominated by another man turns her on, and what that could lead to in our relationship.
I’m wondering whether I should push more, how slow to take things, and whether I should do anything to open myself more towards the idea of being bisexual (something I’ve never considered before this). All thoughts and advice are welcome.