18 F, how do I recover (online relationship)?
About two week ago , a guy (22yo) I've been chatting with for about 3 months ask me if I want to be his sub. And I got a week to think about it but I ended up accepting him. Maybe it was a bit rush on my side tbh because I like him and the concept of finally getting my first Dom is exciting so I already knew I would accept his offer.
Fast forward after I accept it, I also did confirm with him few times if he's sure of this because he told me he got goals in his life rn like, sleep early, less alcohol, less sex, etc. So I was wondering if he's truly okay with me being in a dominant submissive relationship with him, he said yes btw. About two days after, we established my safe word and some REALLY basic rules , non specific cause he said he's going to fix it soon. But then , tht night he started to not replying to my text, even the goodnight text. So I was already suspicious, like is he feeling okay ? Is he good? And the next day he started the chat with 'Hey, we gotta talk about something'. And yeah I already know what hes going to do, he said he's not comfortable and I deserve better. Honestly I was already crying at this point because i realize he deleted all his pictures so I told him it's fine, I get it. I try to assure him it's okay instead of telling him I'm upset n crying cause I was worried if hes going to feel even bad about it. Then he told me he's going to sleep when I'm in the middle of deleting my explicit pictures (cause he told me to do it) but surprise surprise, he delete discord.
How the hell do I recover from my first Dom tht last three days but I've been talking for 3+ months?