36 [M4F] #Online - I want to fetishize your trauma/disorder
If you are faint of heart or easily triggered, I suggest you stop reading now. After much experience I have found to get the most sexual and emotional satisfaction when owning a sub with some form of (severe) ongoing or past trauma or mental disorder. The way I see it, life isn't rainbows and sunshine. If you have issues, like most girls coming here certainly do, these issues won't be going anywhere anytime soon. Then the choice becomes very simple. Do you go on feeling sad/lonely/depressed, hating yourself/someone else/your life OR do you give yourself to a man who won't just accept you and your baggage, but cherish you for it? This won't make your issues magically disappear, but why not try to at least draw something positive and pleasurable from them?
There are two general categories you will probably fall into and I'm interested in both of them in different ways:
You are a broken, deeply depraved girl who knows about her issues, knows how wrong it is but have resigned yourself. You've accepted your situation and given yourself to your taboo urges, which give you so much pleasure and relief.
You are perhaps shy and alone, unable to form connections with anyone because of your messed up mind. You have secret fantasies that you would never share with anyone because you are too ashamed to even admit them to yourself. But every now and then when you are particularly horny and playing with yourself, your mind wanders off and sexualizes the things that ruin your life. In fact, it might not even be sexual at all, but you dream of an older, mature man in your life who would embrace you with all your flaws and always take care of you, through thick and thin.
I want use to have a dom/sub arrangement which includes, but is not limited to, me sexualising your disorders or trauma. Maybe you will happily engage it, maybe I have to drag it out of you. I am particularly interested in past assault, ED or SH. I'm also open to being a fatherly figure who helps you cope and overcome your issues in the long term, should that be something you desire. For now, my only limit is anything illegal.
About me: Professional working in psychology, tall, athletic, white with Italian roots, good balance of indoor and outdoor hobbies. Open to talking about anything from horror movies to cooking to exploring the world.