u/excitingflavor

He’s been in 5 months and the most I’ve ever gotten is “you’re so pretty” “I love you so much” “I can’t wait to marry you” which don’t get me wrong I appreciate very much and I know he’s not just saying it to say it. I know he means it. But. The other day I tried to make it a little spicier. He was complaining about being skipped for lunch so I said “if I were there you could eat a piece of this ass” he said “wow you’re so nice thank you!” Then I said “you could eat more than that if you wanted to” THIS MAN SAYS “hell yeah I’ve always wanted to try human meat” 🫠🫠🫠 (he doesn’t) I gave up after that. What the hell lmao how do I get this man to flirt with me?? No issues with that when he was out here. What on earth y’all lmao

Lately I’ve been feeling really beat down by it all, so much so that sometimes I don’t want to answer his calls. We talk for about an hour and a half every day. Sometimes 2. He usually fully misses my 3pm lunch break bc he sleeps until like 4pm (😒) misses my 5:30 10 minute break but calls anyway, usually right after I get back to work, so then I get stressed about taking a second break when I shouldn’t (nobody at work has an issue with this but still lol) then he calls at 8:30 which is right after I’m off work and spending time with his kids (toddlers) so that’s chaos of course. I stay with the kids til 10 then he calls right when I get home and we talk til 11. Between work and the kids, also helping his mother on my days off bc her husband just died, sometimes I just want to throw my phone away and have some damn me time. Everything I have is going into this. I love talking to him and I cherish it so much because it’s all we have right now. But SOMETIMES LADIES, SOMEETIMMMEEESSS I let it ring a few times before I answer lol it’s not that I don’t love him I’m just TIRED

My LO has been in a transfer pod at WSP for a month. He was supposed to finally transfer to Stafford Creek last week, but they skipped him, saying one more week. Then they skipped him again today. What the hell. Is this normal? Why are they not moving him? I’m so frustrated

Ever since my LO got arrested (March 27) I’ve been a total recluse. I talk to my family way less, enough that everyone is asking each other what’s up with me. I decline nearly every plan my friends try to make with me, and the only reason I haven’t declined some of them is because I knew if I did, they’d give up on me. And when I do go out, I’m the first to leave because I’m just desperate to get back home the entire time. Every single phone notification irritates me so badly. I get angry when anyone asks me to do anything. It feels like an assault on my time?? I’ve caught myself thinking “I wish I didn’t have any family or friends” which is really fucking sad and so messed up. I love my family and my friends. I also cannot take care of myself. There have been many days where all I eat is an apple and a protein shake. I keep forgetting to drink water and my house is in absolute shambles. I can’t function this way for three more years. I don’t know what to do :( I’m not suicidal by any means. I do love life. It just sucks so bad at the moment

Has anyone experienced or heard of someone who fully qualified for GRE but didn’t get it? I’m talking literally zero infractions and behavior issues. How much faith should I have in this system? They’ve bungled everything every step of the way and GRE is our last hope. I talked to one woman in line with me at visitation and expressed worry about it, she said “psh he’ll totally get it. They give it to everyone” but that’s just one perspective. Everyone else is unsure about it but none of them have any firsthand experience with DOC. Any input much appreciated!

I had just told my family about him a month before he got arrested. I soft launched it to them because he’s a little older than me (I’m 28 he’s 36) with two kids (ages 2 and 4) and I didn’t want to freak them out too much so I downplayed it, which my LO actually preferred for the time being. There was going to have to be strategy about this either way. What I didn’t tell them is how he’s perfect for me and I’ve connected with the kids in a really big way. After my LO went to jail and now prison, he wants me to backtrack and just say we don’t hang out anymore (technically true lol) so that’s what I said and where we’re all currently at. He wants the best chances of approval once he gets out and in that regard, I do completely agree.

Here’s the problem: I’m visiting the kids once sometimes twice a week now. I didn’t see them for about four months as an attempt to slow down the “mom” feelings. But since I’ve been back hanging out with them, the feelings are just as strong as they were before and just keep growing. My first day back, they started calling me “Mommy Kristen” I’m already sad that he can’t be there with me while I experience this part of life for the first time, but I’m even sadder about my own mom not being here for this. I’m terrified that she won’t approve and won’t help me, but I don’t know how I’m going to get through this without support from my own family. And I don’t want my parents to miss out on even more of their own grandparent experience. They don’t even know they’ve already been missing out. This weighs on me soooo heavily. It’s so hard to balance what’s basically a double life between two families. Two families I thought would be joined by now. I feel like a liar and like by living this way, I’m robbing myself of the life I wanted. It’s already not what I wanted just because of the prison thing but I’ve made the choice already and am at peace with that part. I just want my own family in on this so badly and I don’t think they can handle it. But I really need them to.

EDIT TO ADD: we’d been together for 8 months before I told my parents about his existence