u/ffsthrowaway10928

my previous post: https://www.reddit.com/r/REALfindomsupport/s/Fb8h0ThliU

well, he finally removed me as a friend on discord within the past couple days, so while i am saddened i didn’t get a parting message, i do feel a surprising amount better at the thought that he is likely at least safe. i have of course experienced subs disappearing (which, while often sucky, is understandable), but i had never worried in this manner before.

it does make me feel like i shouldn’t care about subs so much, and shouldn’t bother forming such close bonds, in the interest of protecting my feelings, but i don’t know. i’ve just been experiencing so much disappointment lately, it really puts me in such a bratty, cold, and ruthless mood.

i had a sub approach me in the most amazing way. gifted me generously, wrote me in such an articulated and poetic way, verified right away. we quickly developed what i consider a pretty close connection, had a call that seemed to go really well. he was so handsome, and took to his knees during the call to show his submission, even though we were just talking more and getting to know eachother. was so generous, wrote me such sweet poetry. seemed truly levelheaded, committed to his subservience for the long term, deleted his reddit account (which wasn’t just days old or anything) as he felt he had found his match, and was so enthralled and excited to serve me. we made some plans to call the next day, and we had spoken after that.

he had let me know early on that he could possibly be pulled for conflict in regions i won’t name. and he has more recently stopped responding. i’ve had subs disappear, but never in this way. he hasn’t removed me as a friend where we communicate, his account is years old. i am worried for his safety, it makes me so sad thinking of him and what he is doing. i am confident he would communicate with me if he wasn’t feeling sure in this. so it just makes me worry a lot.why did he have to be so perfect :(