I (f26) went to a sex club for the first time with someone recently, and now I feel kind of ashamed/embarrassed.
I’ve never done anything like this before, but have always been interested in kink/bdsm. At the club we had public sex in several places, and people were watching. At one point two couples joined us in one of the rooms but the dom I was with stopped them from touching me so nothing happened between us and them. But yeah we had sex publicly and drew a small crowd at times.
At the time I didn’t mind it, but now that I’m home and away from that environment, I can’t help thinking about how other people would judge me if they knew, how although phones were banned someone might’ve recorded us, how shameful what I did was.
I know in my head that there is nothing wrong with kink and I should be sex positive, but I can’t help thinking these negative things, how I’m not normal now that I’ve done this, and that people would think less of me.
Is this normal? How do I navigate these feelings?
Edit: thank you everyone for the kind words and advice!
Everyone here is so wholesome and supportive, I read all the comments carefully. I might not have time to respond to each, but I really appreciate the time you guys took to help me, I feel a lot better already😭😭