She’s now claiming it was all “for the sake of the fantasy,” but I know that’s bullshit. If it was really for my kink, she would have told me beforehand and involved me. Instead I got blindsided by the other guy warning me off.
The humiliation is hitting me extremely hard — and it’s turning me on more than anything ever has. I’ve never felt like a bigger cuckold in my life. Even after losing all my self-respect, I can’t stop myself from texting her. The mix of pain, jealousy, betrayal and arousal is addictive.
I’m fully aware this is messing with my head, but I still want to lean into it and make the situation even more intense. Any ideas or experiences from other cucks on how to handle or escalate this kind of dynamic safely? How do you keep feeding the humiliation without completely destroying yourself?