u/greenpants33

So my wife and I have been hotwifing for 4 years now. We have had a quite a few bulls In that time and many fun experiences. So as recently as a month back I’ve had this big fantasy of my wife meeting up with a new guy alone to go on a date. The thought of her being out with a new guy (without me for the first time) turns me on. The thought of another man sitting at a bar with her, flirting, maybe rubbing her leg, trying to impress her and get her into bed. The hottest part of it for me is that for the first time I won’t know exactly what’s happening all I’ll have is my imagination and knowing my wife is wearing a low cut shirt and tight jeans and fully willing and ready to go home with him. Finally decided to act on it she made an account on bumble and talked to a few guys and made her choice and set a date with this handsome Italian guy that lives 15 mins away from us in the town over. They set a date for Friday at 8pm to meet for drinks. Although it’s only Tuesday I am having some of the worst anxiety ever. Now than it’s real I’m losing my grip and regretting and feeling as if maybe I should have just kept this a fantasy. The thought of me not knowing and not getting to be there to hear the sounds, see her on him etc idk if maybe it’s a loss of control but it feels scary now. I won’t know the moment she starts sucking him off, or riding him or even after if they’ll be in bed laying on one another talking waiting to go a round two. I just won’t know and I feel like I’m going to be an anxious mess and not enjoy it. She told me we can cancel at anytime. She said she has no issue calling it off at any point if I’m feeling bad. I want to but also don’t want to call it off at the same time. Has anyone here ever gone thought that? If so how did you go through with it?