u/holdhealthy161

I masturbate multiple times daily. I get action frequently but I still masturbate way too much. I’m obsessed with my penis and its size and have even shown my friends just because I wanted to. I like showing off my dick, I’m proud of the size. I hate being this way though as it genuinely does get annoying. I can’t get out of bed without ejaculating, can’t go to bed with ejaculating. Need to ejaculate mid day. But I also kind of love it

I masturbate multiple times daily. I get action frequently but I still masturbate way too much. I’m obsessed with my penis and its size and have even shown my friends just because I wanted to. I like showing off my dick, I’m proud of the size. I hate being this way though as it genuinely does get annoying. I can’t get out of bed without ejaculating, can’t go to bed with ejaculating. Need to ejaculate mid day. But I also kind of love it

I masturbate multiple times daily. I get action frequently but I still masturbate way too much. I’m obsessed with my penis and its size and have even shown my friends just because I wanted to. I like showing off my dick, I’m proud of the size. I hate being this way though as it genuinely does get annoying. I can’t get out of bed without ejaculating, can’t go to bed with ejaculating. Need to ejaculate mid day. But I also kind of love it

I masturbate multiple times daily. I get action frequently but I still masturbate way too much. I’m obsessed with my penis and its size and have even shown my friends just because I wanted to. I like showing off my dick, I’m proud of the size. I hate being this way though as it genuinely does get annoying. I can’t get out of bed without ejaculating, can’t go to bed with ejaculating. Need to ejaculate mid day. But I also kind of love it

I masturbate multiple times daily. I get action frequently but I still masturbate way too much. I’m obsessed with my penis and its size and have even shown my friends just because I wanted to. I like showing off my dick, I’m proud of the size. I hate being this way though as it genuinely does get annoying. I can’t get out of bed without ejaculating, can’t go to bed with ejaculating. Need to ejaculate mid day. But I also kind of love it

I masturbate multiple times daily. I get action frequently but I still masturbate way too much. I’m obsessed with my penis and its size and have even shown my friends just because I wanted to. I like showing off my dick, I’m proud of the size. I hate being this way though as it genuinely does get annoying. I can’t get out of bed without ejaculating, can’t go to bed with ejaculating. Need to ejaculate mid day. But I also kind of love it

I masturbate multiple times daily. I get action frequently but I still masturbate way too much. I’m obsessed with my penis and its size and have even shown my friends just because I wanted to. I like showing off my dick, I’m proud of the size. I hate being this way though as it genuinely does get annoying. I can’t get out of bed without ejaculating, can’t go to bed with ejaculating. Need to ejaculate mid day. But I also kind of love it

I masturbate multiple times daily. I get action frequently but I still masturbate way too much. I’m obsessed with my penis and its size and have even shown my friends just because I wanted to. I like showing off my dick, I’m proud of the size. I hate being this way though as it genuinely does get annoying. I can’t get out of bed without ejaculating, can’t go to bed with ejaculating. Need to ejaculate mid day. But I also kind of love it

I’ve noticed that I masturbate multiple times every single day, and it’s something that has become part of my routine to the point where it feels almost impossible to avoid. It doesn’t seem to matter whether I’ve had sex recently or not, because even though I have an active sex life and get plenty of action, I still constantly feel the need to masturbate. It’s like my brain is always telling me that I need to ejaculate, regardless of whether I’ve already done it recently. It’s frustrating because I know it isn’t necessary, but the urge is always there.
Another part of this is that I’m extremely fixated on my penis and its size. I’ve always been proud of it, and I spend far more time thinking about it than I probably should. Sometimes I catch myself looking at it in the mirror or comparing myself mentally to other people. There have even been times where I’ve shown it to close friends simply because I wanted to show it off. It wasn’t because I was trying to achieve anything in particular—I was just proud of it and wanted other people to see what I had. Looking back, I realise that’s unusual behaviour, and it’s not something I’m particularly proud of now.
The obsession goes beyond just being confident about my body. I genuinely think about it throughout the day, and it often becomes a distraction. I find myself wanting reassurance that I’m well-endowed, even though deep down I already know I’m happy with my size. It almost feels like I seek validation from myself or from others, despite not actually needing it.
My daily routine revolves around masturbation more than I’d like to admit. I struggle to get out of bed in the morning without ejaculating first because it feels like I can’t properly start my day until I have. At night, it’s the opposite—I find it difficult to fall asleep unless I’ve masturbated before bed. Even during the middle of the day, I often feel another overwhelming urge that I end up giving in to. It’s become so normal that I rarely question it in the moment, but afterwards I sometimes wonder why I felt such a strong need.
The strange thing is that my feelings about it are mixed. On one hand, I genuinely hate how much control these urges seem to have over me. They can be distracting, inconvenient, and sometimes make me feel like I’m wasting time or focusing on something that shouldn’t be such a major part of my life. I wish I could go through the day without constantly thinking about when I’ll next masturbate or feeling like I need to.
On the other hand, there’s a part of me that actually enjoys it. I like the confidence I have in my body, and I like the feelings that come with it. Because of that, I don’t entirely want those thoughts or urges to disappear. That’s what makes it confusing—I find it both annoying and enjoyable at the same time. It’s a habit and an obsession that feels deeply ingrained, and while I sometimes wish I had more control over it, another part of me has grown comfortable with the way things are.