u/jeffery-stall

Memorial Day weekend is almost here. This Sunday marks 11 months without a single orgasm. Only allowing myself edging. After that July 5 will be just 6 weeks away. One full year to the day. So July 6 is the first day that have decided to allow myself an orgasm. I have a few decisions to make.

By what means shall I have that first one? A full hands on, start to finish, jerk off? I am thinking that's a bit too permissive. Thinking it should be ruined. Maybe a totally hands off plapping orgasm? A balls only whacking cum? By the way ... who came up with that ridiculus name for that? Or a cock whacking beat off? Gotta weird name for that anybody? And before you suggest it ... I don't have a fleshlite or a vibe so forget those avenues. Any other crazy ideas other than the anal thing as I am not into that.

Next question(s). What cums after? Keep in mind that I have every intention of going back to another cum free period. I haven't decided how long my play period is going to be yet. That is up for discussion. Right now I am thinking about how many orgasms to allow myself and over what length of time and how am I going to space them out. Do I go with a full month before returning to an edging only lifestyle like this past 11 months? Or just a couple weeks? Shall I jerk off every day or every other day? Or more days inbetween? Should all of them be ruined? After all ... submissives really aren't supposed to have orgasms at all and if I am going to allow myself having a few, I should at least make tgem the least pleasurable as possible.

Anyway ... all that is probably the short list. I am pretty sure that during the next 6 weeks I will cum up with more mind bending questions and maybe some fascinatingly twisted answers.

Suggestions? Ides? Cruel recommendations? Or,are you going to take your weekend holiday to think it over and get back to me next week?

This isn't a test, unless you want it to be. You can rate yourself at the end and let us in on your evaluation. You can add questions if you like. All comments welcome.

Most of you here are probably into self CBT practice. Include yourself if your torture us inflicted by another if you like.

Are you a ball beater? Or a cock beater too?

Do you use toys like mallets or bongers, hammers or sticks? Or are you just a fister?

Do you beat your balls while they are hanging free? Or do you beat them while they lie on your crotch? Or do you hold them tight with one hand while beating them with the other?

Have you noticed that as you are beating on them that your ball sac loosenes and your hang increases? Or aren't you beating on them long enough to get that result?

How often do you beat them? Once a week? Or more? Every day? More than once a day?

When you beat your balls do you get a rock hard erection? If you beat them long enough, do you get close to ejaculating? Do you then allow yourself to cum? Or do you stop and let your cock calm down so you can beat some more?

If you allow yourself an orgasm, are you done for the day? Do you not allow yourself an orgasm so you can beat them more again later? How often do you just beat your balls and do nothing else?

While you are beating your balls and your cock gets hard, do you then beat your cock too? Do you beat your cock while it is standing free? Or do you lay it on a hard surface like a countertop and beat it?

Can you cum from beating your cock? Do you stop and rest before you cum so you can resume after a rest?

Do you slap your cock on a hard surface again and again? Do you slap for awhile and beat for awhile?

Do you crush your balls? Do you use a ball crusher? Or do you just press on them with your hand against a hard surface?

Do you have more than one kind of crusher? Do any of your crushers have spikes?

Do you crush your cpck? Do you use toys for that? Do any of them have spikes?

Before you beat your cock or balls, do you decide first how many hits you are going to bless them with? Do you keep any kind of record day to day of your torture?

While reading these questions did you get the urge or an erection? Did you have to stop before completing reading all questions and have a beating session?

Did any of these questions give you new ideas for your treatments?

So ... what do you have say for yourself now? Are you a novice experimenter? A casual practitioner? Or are you a seasoned pro?

If you found yourself saying "yes'" to yourself a lot ... well... you know.

I am going to describe a situation that you may or may not be in or have had happen to you. But as a sub or a dom, what would you do in this situation?

A sub is being edged. Nothing new. Tease and denial is a regular thing you do. After edging for a time it is common for there to be an eventual orgasm.

During one of your sessions, the edged person asks or begs you NOT to allow them to cum.

As the edger would you grant the request or force an orgasm? If the edged wanted you to only edge them most or the time and grant an orgasm only very occasionally, would you grant that request?

As the person being edged. If the request was denied how would you feel and handle that? Keep begging? If your edger stopped allowing orgasms or very infrequently how would you feel about that and handle it?

Feel free to comment even if you would never see yourself in that situation. Or more generally ... what if your partner suddenly wanted to change the regular routine of tease and denial and orgasm relief?