u/jeffery-stall

Hay everyone. Remember me? You can check my profile and review my previous posts if you joined us recently and want to catch up. Look for my posts that have a similar title as thus one. Or just continue here for a review.

On July 5 of last year, I began denying myself orgasms with no real goal or intent to do anything long term. I didn't think I would want to or be able to do a long term thing. But days turned into weeks and weeks into months. I found that even without a cage that my self determination and willpower was enough to get me through. I was edging every day which provided some degree of pleasure but also added a great level of frustration as well. But being the gluten for punishment that I am, it just worked well for me.

So moving on to phase 2. As the months passed by, I had no real goal in mind. But as I got closer to today which is exactly 365 days since starting, I settled on 1 year as the end of phase 1.

Tomorrow I am going to allow myself orgasms for awhile. I tend to feel at this point that after some period of time that I will probably go back to full denial again. No date set for that. Like before when I started phase 1, it's a plan as I go kind of thing. I am a dyed in the wool submissive and have been all my life. As the years have passed, I have tended to feel more and more strongly that submissives should never be allowed orgasms. They just do not deserve that much pleasure. Denial and suffering is all they should expect.

This release from orgasm restriction is filled with a real degree of "bad boy" feelings. I should be feeling real shame for indulging myself with this. But as I have said in the past, I want to experience all that comes with this kind of journey.

Many of you have suggested that my orgasms will be unfulfilling or even disappointing. It could be that my own inner guilt feelings will ruin them. Or just having gone the year under full denial may cause my junk to just not respond as expected due to being out of practice.

There has also been some discussion as to what methods I should use when bringing myself to orgasm. The prevailing opinion seems to lean toward ruining any and all of them. There was some discussion of plapping only orgasms. Or stimulation by any other means than hand to cock techniques. And then there was the idea of full abandon jerking off for the highest degree of pleasure to just get it over with and out of my system.

I do have an expectation of great feelings of guilt and remorse. As a submissive and a masochist, I am probably going to have some strong feelings of wanting to be punished for this self indulgent behavior. Just goes with the territory.

Again ... the whole idea here is to experience all that may come. I am just totally open to whatever occurs given my history, training and previous experience as a submissive.

That all said ... what would I like to hear from any of you who would care to comment? Some of you will want to encourage me to drop this whole phase 2 idea and continue my journey of full denial. That's fine. Bring it on. If you want to shame me and verbally degrade me, I won't mind. Any and all suggestions about how to achieve orgasms is welcome. Any suggestions for appropriate punishments are welcome too.

So that's about it, I think. So open the floodgates of opinion if you have the time and desire. And thanks in advance for any and all cooments, opinion and discussion you have to offer.

Oh. One more thing. Even though my restriction ends tonight at midnight and I can start indulging myself tomorrow, I won't be doing that. I have a very minor medical procedure on Tuesday and I won't be actually moving to phase 2 until Wednesday. So there is a few days for all of you to comment before my big day.

Thanks for listening and Happy 4th of July for all you US lovers of freedom and democracy. Free to jerk off ... or not.

Before my question, I have some set up info. I am currently on self imposed orgasm restriction. I haven't allowed myself to cum in several months. I only have CBT practice to relieve stress. Of course, denying orgasms causes me to have spontanious erections several times a day that must be firmly dealt with.

I have always had erections during the night but never while waking up in the morning. Lately, that has changed. Every morning now upon waking, I am having rock hard erections. I deal with them by slapping my cock for awhile and then give my balls a good spanking. Then I use my fist to beat my cock and balls for as long as it takes for my cock to give up and go soft.

Daytime hardons are completely different. If I torture my cock and/or my balls long enough I will eventually have to stop or I will cum.

I am trying to figure out why that is. Why does beating my morning wake up hardon go soft eventually and my day erections don't go soft and stay hard until I stop?

One thing to get out of the way first. In my last posting, there was a good number of comments made suggesting that I should continue my orgasm denial and not have a cum fest starting on July 6, one month from today. My release period is no longer a maybe or a "I will think about it". I get it. Most of you seem to feel that it will be filled with disappointment. Mostly in myself and that my orgasms will probably not be all that enjoyable.

My orgasms will no doubt not be all that mindblowing. As I have said before ... it is my intention to make them the least enjoyable as possible. I will ruin most if not all of them. As for the disappointment in myself if that happens ... both that psychological part and the orgasm part are just a part of the whole journey. I want to experience it all.

So please don't try to change my mind about that. My release is going to happen. For how long before returning to a new period of denial, I am not sure yet. I do expect that I probably will at some point since I really like how things have gone these past 11 months.

When I first started out, I seriously questioned if I could go the distance. Now I can say that it was a whole lot easier than I thought it would be.

There have been some recent changes that I find interesting.

MORNING ERECTIONS. I get them at night while sleeping. Most of us do. But I don't have them when I wake up in the morning usually. Now I am. Every morning. And of course he wants me to play with him. OK. Not a big deal but why now? Is it because I set a date in stone and anticipation has me more horny than usual?

INCREASED HORNYNESS. Well, I am more horny lately. No question. The fact is that several times a day (and I do mean several) I get erections for no apparent reason. No porn, no handling or playing around. It just happens. And it is urgent. He wants to play and NOW. Problem. I exercise in the morning and I get an erection every time I exercise now. That's a problem because I am one of those guys that goes commando most of the time. I have one thong that I wear only for dress up occasions. I had to establish some real control.

WEARING CAGES. I have made it a point in the past to explain that I don't wear cages anymore because I find them to be a hassle and I don't need them. I am perfectly capable of remaining orgasm free by willpower alone. Obviously I have proven that. I do have two really nice stainless steel cages I have had for tears. I do like wearing a cage now and then for short periods. I do like the feel of confinement and all that. So after breakfast every morning now, I put on a cage before going to exercise. And when I get home, I have been leaving it on well through the morning. That is unusual for me too. But a good thing.

GLANS RINGS. I love them a lot. I usually wear 3 or 4 of them while I am wearing a cage. It adds to the feel. I also like them as they make it difficult to stimulate an erection when I get them. They are comfortable a add some protection from playing too much. In fact, I have a new one arriving in the mail today. It is heavier, thicker, longer and tighter. It will be a bit harder to get on and off. That's a positive.

One last item. I haven't mentioned it before because it isn't a topic we tend to talk about here. There is another reason that I don't like cages. I need full access to the boys because I am and always have been very into CBT. It is a real stress reliever for me. The thing is that with all these erections I have been getting (like 5 or more) every day now ... well ... like I said ... this isn't the place to go into detail about that here. Just thought I would throw that out there for those of you that might share in that interest.

So. I will probably get back to you as my release day gets closer. Who knows what other changes may occur as I get closer. Most certainly you will hear from me during my release period. You will probably all be anxious to know when I decide to stop playing around and get back to some real long term denial as any good boy should.

Memorial Day weekend is almost here. This Sunday marks 11 months without a single orgasm. Only allowing myself edging. After that July 5 will be just 6 weeks away. One full year to the day. So July 6 is the first day that have decided to allow myself an orgasm. I have a few decisions to make.

By what means shall I have that first one? A full hands on, start to finish, jerk off? I am thinking that's a bit too permissive. Thinking it should be ruined. Maybe a totally hands off plapping orgasm? A balls only whacking cum? By the way ... who came up with that ridiculus name for that? Or a cock whacking beat off? Gotta weird name for that anybody? And before you suggest it ... I don't have a fleshlite or a vibe so forget those avenues. Any other crazy ideas other than the anal thing as I am not into that.

Next question(s). What cums after? Keep in mind that I have every intention of going back to another cum free period. I haven't decided how long my play period is going to be yet. That is up for discussion. Right now I am thinking about how many orgasms to allow myself and over what length of time and how am I going to space them out. Do I go with a full month before returning to an edging only lifestyle like this past 11 months? Or just a couple weeks? Shall I jerk off every day or every other day? Or more days inbetween? Should all of them be ruined? After all ... submissives really aren't supposed to have orgasms at all and if I am going to allow myself having a few, I should at least make tgem the least pleasurable as possible.

Anyway ... all that is probably the short list. I am pretty sure that during the next 6 weeks I will cum up with more mind bending questions and maybe some fascinatingly twisted answers.

Suggestions? Ides? Cruel recommendations? Or,are you going to take your weekend holiday to think it over and get back to me next week?

This isn't a test, unless you want it to be. You can rate yourself at the end and let us in on your evaluation. You can add questions if you like. All comments welcome.

Most of you here are probably into self CBT practice. Include yourself if your torture us inflicted by another if you like.

Are you a ball beater? Or a cock beater too?

Do you use toys like mallets or bongers, hammers or sticks? Or are you just a fister?

Do you beat your balls while they are hanging free? Or do you beat them while they lie on your crotch? Or do you hold them tight with one hand while beating them with the other?

Have you noticed that as you are beating on them that your ball sac loosenes and your hang increases? Or aren't you beating on them long enough to get that result?

How often do you beat them? Once a week? Or more? Every day? More than once a day?

When you beat your balls do you get a rock hard erection? If you beat them long enough, do you get close to ejaculating? Do you then allow yourself to cum? Or do you stop and let your cock calm down so you can beat some more?

If you allow yourself an orgasm, are you done for the day? Do you not allow yourself an orgasm so you can beat them more again later? How often do you just beat your balls and do nothing else?

While you are beating your balls and your cock gets hard, do you then beat your cock too? Do you beat your cock while it is standing free? Or do you lay it on a hard surface like a countertop and beat it?

Can you cum from beating your cock? Do you stop and rest before you cum so you can resume after a rest?

Do you slap your cock on a hard surface again and again? Do you slap for awhile and beat for awhile?

Do you crush your balls? Do you use a ball crusher? Or do you just press on them with your hand against a hard surface?

Do you have more than one kind of crusher? Do any of your crushers have spikes?

Do you crush your cpck? Do you use toys for that? Do any of them have spikes?

Before you beat your cock or balls, do you decide first how many hits you are going to bless them with? Do you keep any kind of record day to day of your torture?

While reading these questions did you get the urge or an erection? Did you have to stop before completing reading all questions and have a beating session?

Did any of these questions give you new ideas for your treatments?

So ... what do you have say for yourself now? Are you a novice experimenter? A casual practitioner? Or are you a seasoned pro?

If you found yourself saying "yes'" to yourself a lot ... well... you know.

I am going to describe a situation that you may or may not be in or have had happen to you. But as a sub or a dom, what would you do in this situation?

A sub is being edged. Nothing new. Tease and denial is a regular thing you do. After edging for a time it is common for there to be an eventual orgasm.

During one of your sessions, the edged person asks or begs you NOT to allow them to cum.

As the edger would you grant the request or force an orgasm? If the edged wanted you to only edge them most or the time and grant an orgasm only very occasionally, would you grant that request?

As the person being edged. If the request was denied how would you feel and handle that? Keep begging? If your edger stopped allowing orgasms or very infrequently how would you feel about that and handle it?

Feel free to comment even if you would never see yourself in that situation. Or more generally ... what if your partner suddenly wanted to change the regular routine of tease and denial and orgasm relief?