Late in life lesbian sub struggling
First ever post on anything on reddit and idk where to start. I came out last year as a lesbian to most people in my life. It's been so too long since I've had any kind of even slightly romantic/sexual interaction with anyone and it's really starting to get to me. The NEED to submit is overwhelming sometimes and I just cry because I don't have anyone. I've been on the dating apps with no luck, talking to people for months otp and through text but when the time comes to ask if they want to go out it's crickets or they backtrack and apologize. I live about an hour from the closest major city with a lesbian bar, money is tight and the city I live in has no queer anything (red state). I feel so isolated. I'm 27, about 5'7" and plus size (size 18/20), alternative fashion sense more fem leaning. I don't lead with my being a submissive, unless their dating profile is sex forward. I just needed to let this out somewhere and I hope this is the right place to do that. Thank you to whoever reads this and understands 🫶🏻 I can't be the only one.
Edit: Thank you to the people who have commented in support so far, and the people who have been nice when DM'ing me. Yes I'm looking and open for a domme but DO NOT DM me expecting complete submission in the first 10 minutes of interaction without knowing anything about me 🚩 I may be new to this but I am not new as a sub.