I have no one to share this with so adding it for my fellow subby or regressor friends here... im getting my very own cage commissioned and im so so excited. I feel like i dont have a good support system with kink or my pet tendencies but with this cage ill have a place I can just let go and be me. Genuinely so excited to spend the money on this and have a little haven of my own.
So long story short I have a fiance that is vanilla as shit. No kink involved. As I am coming out of depression and getting diagnosed and everything im realizing I NEED submission and want to learn more about how I love to submit. I want to be taken care of and treated like a pet. I just have no good way of telling him that will basically say learn how to love me like this or we need to part. The issue is I dont even think I could leave him if I wanted. We have been together for 6 years and have pets and a life. I love him and just wish he was more into kink but at this point he wont be. I dont know how to bring up an open relationship or him taking a more active roll in kink for me... any advice other than leaving? I know that's probably going to be the first suggestion but I just dont feel mentally able to be on my own.