Do cravings ever go away ?
I’m almost 3 weeks clean from 7. It was a bitch to get through but I’m finally able to sleep more and not constantly be in cold sweats. But the depression, anxiety, and anhedonia is killing me. Years ago I used to be addicted to opiates but stayed away after rehab for the most part.
I had a dream last night that I was using again and while I felt so guilty in the dream , eventually that guilt turned into pleasure and the high felt so real when I woke up it felt like I got narcan’d. It put such a mood on me I caved and bought oxys and norcos.
Took them felt nothing cuz of 7 tolerance.
Anyways what am I supposed to do I know I sound ungrateful now that I’m finally clean but tbh I question if I ever been clean at all. I relapsed multiple times and while I did quit it’s like I don’t want to but I have to .sounds stupid I know