u/lordaltros

An update to my previous post

https://www.reddit.com/r/WeightGainTalk/comments/1swd6y3/weight_thoughts/

So, I managed to keep myself at roughly 271 lbs but this week I'm going to push it to my goal of 280. I've already been overly snacking today but I won't really know until tomorrow or the next day how effective this is going to be. If how I'm feeling right now is any indication then its going to work really well. I'm kinda excited to see how its going to feel to be that heavy and how much bigger I'm going to look.

Time skip, its now 3 days after typing the first paragraph to this post. So I weighed myself the next day and I was 271 lbs, despite snacking until I was stuffed but then when I weighed myself yesterday, it was 274 lbs. the same thing happened again this morning. I was still 274 after snacking until stuffed yesterday. I don't know. I know my system is weird because I don't have a thyroid which is probably why I gain so easily and quickly. I have a feeling that it might a jump up again. I need to just relax and not watch it so closely. But I really like when I see the number climbing up even in little increments and how much different each pound feels.

Funny thing is even though my belly sticks out in front of my like a foot and a half (maybe more) I have a double chin that's almost completely swallowed my adam's apple, I have rolls under my arms and my sides are sticking out over the waist band of my pants, I don't really see myself as fat. I mean, I totally am. but it doesn't really register. I'm not sure how to explain it. I just look at myself in the mirror and wonder how my body would develop if it gets bigger.

Surprisingly, no one around me has said anything yet. No one's made any comments or anything. I know its VERY noticeable especially with how much my belly protrudes now. lol I can't help but stare at it when I'm walking around. It's not that I want people to say anything. In fact I get annoyed when they have in the past. It always has that scolding tone and I know that no one likes dealing with that.

As far as finding someone that could enjoy this whole experience with me, there hasn't been much luck there. Most of the time I get ghosted eventually or whomever I'm talking to loses interest after I mention that I'm making myself fatter or just weight gain in general. It is what it is. I'm going to keep at it though.

The only thing that I don't like about this is that my snacking cuts into my drawing time. I've got a comic that I've been trying to get done but sometimes its hard to focus on drawing when i have something in my lap and stuffing my face lol it does inspire though. The comic I'm currently working on is weight gain related funnily enough.

I have tried interacting with all of you in this subreddit. You all seem cool. I do get the feeling though that my age might play a part in how I'm perceived here. I get it. There aren't too many people in my age group (if at all) around here. But its fine.

well, I'll make another update in a few days. hopefully I'm significantly heavier then lol