u/mega_gooned

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Last year I made a post about how I had a fantasy about getting blackmailed and giving up control.

I am Married, have a wife and kids, but I was in a "Bad" place mentally.

I work as a carpenter, doing new construction sites and home repairs.

I made the post in the evening and went to bed, did not really think anything of it, because who would want to chat with me, an 34 y.o guy.

But how wrong I was, in the morning, there were quite a few messages when I installed Reddit again, I chatted with a few, but most did not "feel" right, except for one guy that messaged me when i was at work, and for fun i was replied back, because the weather was good, and i was kinda bored that day.

We talked a little back and forth, kinks, limits, and general conversation, and he asked me to send a picture, no face, just me in my work clothes, and i did.

After that, the chat kinda died due to time difference, until in the evening when i was home, and my wife was at work, and he messaged me back, and ohh boy, did i go fast from there, i was in with both legs.

I got a safeword, and then I had to send him some nudes, posing, with and without face, then he wanted a pic of my driver's license and my wife's phone number, and I obeyed.

We kept it up for a few months. He had me strip naked at work and jerk my cock, or beg to be used, one time i almost got caught at work by my boss. I almost had a panic attack, and was freaking out from that, but luckily nothing happened.

When I was home in the evening, when my wife was at work, I was the only one awake he would have me degrade and humiliate myself for him, saying how much I loved all the abuse and degradation he put me through, and I did.

Some of the things i had to do:

*Body writing

*Edging/Denial

*Fuck myself inside the house, and outside in the garden

*Fill my ass with ice cubes and then fuck it

*Drinking my own piss

*Naked exercise

*Smear chili sauce on my cock and jerk it until I orgasm and then lick up my cum

*Fill a bowl with water, and then drink as much as I could like a dog, and then swallow a teaspoon of salt. it made me puke up all the water, but that was not enough, i had to fuck myself with the toilet brush while on video call with him, while i was crying and broken, saying how much i deserved this, how this was all i was good for

it ended shortly after that, since my wife was starting to get suspicious, and saw a few chat logs that she should not see, it almost ruined my marriage.

Sometimes i still crave it, or miss it, if that makes sense.

just be careful when playing with fire