how to lose the feeling of shame? (23m)
This is something that i always fantasized about doing but could never even bring up the mildest versions of it, im very sure of what i am, straight and about my masculinity as well, this is a subject that for example inside my friend group i have no problem discussing but when it comes to women recently its starting to get frustrating that i feel physically incapable of bringing up what i like, im a submissive man in general, i wont start any sexual act until they make the first move and even during it i enjoy a lot appearing more meek than them, i like making women feel they are in total control.
i would like to know some advices as to how can i approach the subject when im getting to know a new person, i dont know what is it inside of me that gets me so afraid of being judged and it wasnt really a problem until recently when i started to feel i really need to try this to shake off and change traumatic memories of the past