u/motifica

Go ahead and brace yourself for some reading cause I'm kind of an over explainer when I write.

Am I stupid for posting here? Yes. Will I regret this. Probably. Will anything come of it? Most likely not.

Okay, I am a person with very few friends. Or social interactions in general. I would love to go to parties and bars and be crazy and wild. But I can't. I don't know how. I am the person who walks by a bar three times too embarrassed to go in and then drives home. I have never really had close friendships. I'm not sure how to do that either. Generally, I just don't want to feel so alone all the time.

It feels like I am incapable of having friends without having sex with them. So I guess I'm just taking out the guessing part?

I do not like how much I like sex. It makes life very difficult, especially with how much of a shut-in I tend to be. So I would really like a genuine friend. Even better if you have other friends who I could hang out with. And stuff. But I'm getting ahead of myself. I don't like being a sexual object, despite very much seeing myself that way, and it's frustrating feeling like the only interactions I have with people outside of work are sexual in nature. Partially my fault, I am aware, but maybe we could be regular friends? Who also have sex?

Is that just a relationship? I don't fucking know. I still don't really understand the difference between friendships and relationships minus the sex part. So maybe? Don't know.

This is probably going to be too long and rambly, I apologize. Let's just go over the specifics of what I'm looking for.

I'm super insecure about my height so I'd prefer you to be taller than me (I'm 5'9). I would love to have someone to work out with (especially since like where all the regular gyms in Carlsbad? And what the fuck are pilates and why is that the only thing nearby?) I like nerdy things like video games and ttrpgs and would love to find some groups up in North county for that. I am in the process of moving so I won't be hosting at all until that's done and it would be super awesome if I didn't have to all the time, but it would also be nice to just meet up for drinks or something first?

Not deal breakers by any means, but would be awesome if you had a motorcycle and could help me with my Vespa or had a garage where I could work on my car.

As for sex stuff, I'd be happy if you just touch me all the time and tell me when to take my clothes off for you or whoever else. Happy to discuss any kinks or stuff you're into.

I am a socially inept tomboy who is often depressed and likes to wear fancy clothes. That is my post, thank you and good day.