feeling guilty after knifeplay CW: cutting, s/h mention
me and my gf just did knifeplay for the first time, where i had her cut (fairly lightly) my initials and some derogatory names into her thighs. she was really into it, and it was her idea in the first place, so why do i feel so guilty about it? she even said the cuts make her feel pretty, but i feel like a disgusting and sick person for encouraging her to do that, watching and being into it.
maybe it’s because she’s struggled with self harm in the past. at the same time i feel like i should be able to trust her to know what is and isn’t good for her mental health.
has anyone else felt like this after anything similar? how do i go about dealing with this?
edit: thank you all for the reassurance, i feel better and i talked my my gf about it. <3