u/onenighstan

I’ve been like withholding for a long time because I felt like doing it was disrespecting myself or letting someone get something they shouldn’t have had. So I kept denying myself. Clearly it made me frustrated and acting unusual. I just needed to and I finally did today.

He loved it of course lol. I was tighter than I expected but holy shit it did feel good. It took a little while to push it in but it finally went all the way in after he slowly worked it in. His dick was pretty descent sized. He was black and holy shit the tip was girthy. But overall he was quite satisfied. I creamed on it which was new and I hadn’t done that before. The sounds were literally like macaroni and cheese lmao.

I made him cum. I swallowed. Overall he was happy and said he liked roughing me up. I can still feel my insides kind of throbbing.

I think I for sure love black dick though

As getting dick. It’s been a while and I think I need some. Yes I like attention, yes I get off to it even though I shouldn’t. But even with all the attention it’s not the same as getting the real deal.

I’ve been considering going to some bars or something and wearing something alluring. I’m not really looking for the kind of crowd I have to do the whole small talk stuff. I’m to the point that I want to get straight to the point.

Yeah some guys will flirt or try I to but I’m thinking maybe more than one guy. Just enough to scratch the itch I guess. I’ve not had a black dick before but I think I want to give it a try, I think I want several

It’s not that I’m subconscious of myself but I feel like once I do there’s no turning back. Like I’d be forever just another internet slut. Sure it would be liberating and I’d get lots of attention but I’d also let total strangers see me at my most intimate.

I’ve gotten off to thinking about it lots of times. I always orgasm and realize it’s a bad idea and delete my account but I keep coming back. It’s become a bad addiction to attention.

I feel like once I do I’ll be doing things I never thought I would or having sex with people I normally wouldn’t just to get attention or affection and the idea of throwing myself away still turns me on and off at the same time leaving me pretty wound up in the end.

Needless to say I feel like I’m close.