u/onionkisses

what a relief it is to talk to someone who truly understands & has been in our shoes.

previously I had a therapist who I felt like would judge me when I’d talk to her about what I do at work & my experiences. so I broke up with her & I found someone who is specifically a sex worker therapist & it’s just … wow.. what a difference.

I guess this is why I joined this Reddit page a long time ago - to talk about the shit we go through & to have a circle of people who will actually listen & get it.

anyway, just sharing my thoughts- I’m glad to start the week off on a good note.

happy monday🦋

zero judgement, moreso my mind is blown.
I’m sweating my fucking ass cheeks out regularly 😂😂😂 do your thongs not get drenched ??!!!! especially cause my club has thick muggy air esp rn. I change like 8 times a night. I specifically have like 10 pairs of the exact same color & style thong so I can be fresh without having to change the fit

sooo I haven’t taken birth control since I was 20 (I’m 29 now) I remember the pill made me gain hella weight, so going back on it scares me cause I’ve worked so hard to maintain my body.

I have pmdd & also get hit heavy with periods. I’d love to go to work on my period but I feel like shit, I’m bloated, irritated, depressed, I bleed heavy, ya know the drill. I work at a nude club & yeah I’ve done the whole shoving a tampon & cutting the string thing but I’m tired.

any advice from those who don’t take a break from the pill & they take it continuously so they skip the period altogether? do you find it to be worth it so you don’t have to take long breaks from the club?

Thx

& it’ll just cover my house fee. lmao

fuck ass friday. tf is this ? I wanna go home but I need to leave with something 😩😩😩

I’m sorry I’m just confused. I see a lot of posts on here about dating custy’s like y’all don’t just see them as dollar signs ???? the men who come to the club are slimeballs why the fuck would you want to go out with them. I get it if it’s like a sugar daddy type of thing but y’all are for real FALLING for these motherfuckers? 😭😂

Don’t come at me please I’m just in disbelief 😂😂

The other night I literally just walked onto the floor & i passed these dudes at the bar, one of them gets off the stool & he reaches his hand down, & it literally looks like he’s about to grab my fucking ass..?

so I smack his hand away & he gets all defensive & shows me 2 singles he was supposedly going to put in my garter.

he made a big stink out of me smacking his hand & he refused to give me the $2 after. like I really give a fuck.

hello like why the fuck can you not use your words and ask first?????? fuck all the way off

this is a personal reflection post, & I’m calling myself out

I just have to say that I used to complain that I wasn’t making enough money …. but girl .. I was only working once a week. still struggling to make rent, etc, ruining my nervous system by being angry as fuck & depressed & stressed constantly..

once I started working multiple days in a week I feel so much better about life in general & it makes me want to get my shit together even more.

I’m starting to think more about future goals, I’m starting to engage in new hobbies & also old ones I’ve missed…

It just feels good to come back to life a little, as a woman in my last year of my 20s I feel like I’ve wasted so much of my life so far being down on my luck when really the only way out = is through & the only person who can save me & progress me forward is myself

girl I want to go out on nice dates so bad but he can never afford to so it’s either I treat us both or I go out solo. I get that the economy is bad & he kinda lives paycheck to paycheck ..

but like it’s hard cause you meet a man at the club & he’ll only know you for 20 minutes before he drops hella money on you & then you think about your man at home & how he can’t even take you out for a $65 dinner 😬😬🥺😭😂

it starts to fucks with you, like I deserve more ya know ?

I’m not a materialistic person by any means but damn it’s just shifted my perspective on dating a little

The day before Memorial Day - watchu think?

should I go in TODAY, or ON the actual Memorial Day?

Thoughts …. ?

I’ve spent the last 2 days coaxing this guy to come back to the club after he took a long break from going out. mind you I wouldn’t waste my time unless it was worth it- he’s taken me to the most expensive vip room previously so it was worth a shot.

he claimed he was too tired & going to bed early. then around 1 am as im literally I’m walking into a 15 min room w some random & I SEE HIM !!

I wave to him, he waves back, & go into my room & im like thank the LORD, I bet he’ll be sitting there with his fingers crossed waiting for me… like he did last time… cause I’M the one who got him to come..

so I get out my 15 only to find out he’s in the most expensive vip with not 1, but 2 waitresses. I’m mad as fuck … I’m literally sitting staring at the vip room door waiting for him to come out so I can just talk to him, maybe schmooze him into getting a second room with me…. I’m fuming at this point & the time keeps passing.

turns out this motherfucker got multiple hours with two waitresses. don’t even get me started w that honestly that’s a whole different convo to have but I’m just…lol

This was mad humbling cause just when you think you’re special, reality hits you.

there will always be another girl, someone new that catches their attention, someone hotter, or maybe she just says all the right words & they take the bait.

big lesson for me

I’m just trying to not let it affect my nervous system rn & move forward cause there’s still money to be made but bitch I could have made thousands last night.

Left with $500 after 5 hours so whatever not too bad. I could have stayed longer but I was too irritated to socialize anymore

I flip flop between 2 clubs in my city that are about equal distance from me, & I like both of them for different reasons

Club A: $4 cut per song, nude is $30, topless is $20
house is $50 for the time I usually arrive. $10 tip out to dj, $10 to house mom, $5 to valet

Club B: it’s their discount night tonight, topless only at $10 per song no cut. $15 to dj, $15 to house mom, $5 to valet. House is $40 for the same time of arrival.

I’m really tired & trying to do math is hard rn lol

lmk which one sounds more appealing to you financially…

haven’t been to work in weeks, why do I feel scared to go back?

but then I’ll go & be like “god damn I could come back tomorrow & the next day & the next day!”

it just takes a little push but once I’m there im like meh this isn’t so bad lol

I’ve had a fantasy goal of making $10,000 in one month for a while now but it always seemed so far out of reach

here’s what I wrote down:

• daily goal: $630 (minimum)

• 4 days a week = $2,520 weekly

= $10,080

😭 like, guys is it really that simple????

$630 in one shift WITHOUT a vip room at that- it’ll be work 😩 but it feels so much more attainable to me after I broke it down like this