u/petermobeter

im a transfem who lives in a supportiv living environment becuz i hav disabilities & low spoons & emotional regulation issues.....

every morning (after i eat my breakfast & pills then go back to sleep for ~75 minutes then go poo & use the bidet & wipe with flushabl wetwipes (only flushing a small number of them like the plumber told me years ago), then have metamucil gummies & lunch & a big glass of skim milk) i finally fill a bathtub with hot water and Johnson's Head-To-Toe Baby Body Wash and Shampoo. and i get in and wiggle my body and scrub thru my hair & scalp in the soapy shampooy water with a big toothed comb, and shake my head a bunch while its submerged. then i get out and dry off with a towel, then comb my hair slightly & shave my chin a lil bit. then i get out and get dressed & go upstairs to start my day.

somtimes before bed i brush my teeth. somtimes i dont.

do u think if affini domesticated me.......... theyd force me to hav a more advanced hygeine routine?

becuz my hygeine routine already takes like.......3 hours out of my day. not joking. it really really takes a lot of my spoons. i usually am not done this stuff till 2pm or later. and i wake up originally at 10:30am

i worry that affini wuld say "u dont use separate shampoo & conditioner???? u dont do any skincare????? u poor savage!!!!"

.....and then id hav to spend 4 hours on hygeine every day. becuz id be doin skincare & makeup & spendin even more time in the bath. that wuld be too much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what do u think....? am i crazy?

my affini owner culd keep me wrappd around her upperbody like a scarf when we leave home, and at home we culd hav a water park for me with hot pools, cold pools, lazy rivers, wave pools, shallow pools, & tvs on the wall so i culd watch stuff while im chillin in the hot pool

EDIT: not anti imperialist so much! more anti-colonialist. imperialism is a larger umbrella of interactions that colonialism is somthing within. i got some of the words from the discussion confused. im srry. thank u u/keyprofessional6286

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in an alternate timeline to our own, Sally Locke was a terran citizen living on Trappist 1e in a city in the twilight zone. she had moderately high support needs but lived alone with an older model of a butler robot. she was very isolated & her parents had died. she loved ufology becuz her parents had been into it. they had set her up with disability welfare payments each month from a terran charity media corporation (similar to our timeline's Mister Beast) in exchange for ownership of all her overnet posts, but it was not high enough to allow her for much fanciness.

one day, laying on her couch reading overnet liveposts from the ufology community, she noticed a trend.

"orbs seen in New Edmonton"

"Plasma Spheres floating down in New Canterbury"

"Ball Lightning sending psychic messages in New New Edmonton"

that last one piqued her interest. she took a few screenshots.

she left her apartment with her tablet, and walked downstairs, exiting to the street, and looked up.
she started livefilming with the selfie camera.

"hi evrybody. this is SallyPal. ive been seein posts on the feed about spheres of light floatin in the sky. some have said they can even... talk?" she spliced in the screenshots. "so im on the streets, looking skyward." she switched to the rear camera.

there was nothing. hmm...... no, wait, there was something behind the skyscraper!!!!

"There, do u see it folks? oh my-" she was filming a small red blur of fire wandering thru the air like a summer butterfly. it was quite far away but was very visible.

suddenly she felt the dread of incredible presence in her gut.

CASUALLY TURN OFF THE LIVESTREAM SALLY said the psychic message. I WANT TO INTRODUCE MYSELF PRIVATELY.

"umm..... i gotta go followers!! sorr.... thank u!!! whoa!!!!" she turned off the entire tablet by accident. she vaguely knew the overnet server wuld complete the upload on its own, but she still felt ashamed at having pressed the wrong button.

YOU ARE SAFE SALLY LOCKE said the flaming orb, in response to her own feelings, as it set down on an anti-homeless bench nearby. SIT WITH ME.

"ummm..... ill stand over here...." she whispered.....

SALLY, it started, YOUR SPECIES IS UNDER ATTEMPTED IMPERIALIST & SPIRITUAL ATTACK BY AN EMPIRE OF BEINGS KNOWN AS THE AFFINI.

"huh?" sally blinked "are they...... really? im into ufo stuff and i havent heard of them"

WE HAVE BEEN HOLDING THEM BACK FOR SOME TIME. BUT WE ARE TIRED. THE AFFINI ARE STRONG. SO WE MUST TEACH YOUR SPECIES TO HELP RESIST.

sally sweated. but in her heart, she felt purpose. and hope. "i hate to be selfish.... but does this include helping me with my disability & gender stuff?"

IT IS NOT SELFISH SALLY. WE BEGIN YOUR TRAINING TOMORROW. AND BE AWARE: WE ARE ALREADY TRAINING MANY OTHERS. THIS IS NOT A RACE. and with that, the orb vanished in a puff of sparkly steam.

that night, before going to bed, sally looked out her window while listening to songs by a classical orchestra from the world war 1 era which called itself FOO FIGHTERS. it was said that a member of this orchestra who had been named dave grohl had seen these orbs of light while flying in his guitairplane.

the next morning, fifteen minutes after Sally woke up, she recieved a psychic message.

YOU OFTEN STRUGGLE WITH NEUROLOGICAL FUNCTIONING IN THE MORNING SALLY. TODAY WE WILL BOOST UR NEURONONAL CONNECTIONS. BUT THIS IS JUST A SAMPLE. YOU MUST FORM A STRONG MEMORY OF HOW THIS FEELS, SO THAT U MAY CALL IT BACK FROM WITHIN YOURSELF LATER, WITHOUT OUR HELP.

sally felt her mental blueprint for her future, her ability to stack nearterm ambitions.... replenish itself on oxygen in the blood from her heart. it felt like a drunkenness being cleared. it was tragic how long she had spent in that stupor...

DO NOT CRY; IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT SALLY..... BUT IF YOU WANT TO MAKE UP FOR THE LOST DECADES, WORK HARD TO REMEMBER THE SENSATION OF THE GRADIENT MOVING FROM STUPEFIED TO AWARE.

after getting ready for the day in record time, sally smiled, took a sip of grapejuice & went outside to the street again.

the flaming orb was at the antihomeless bench once again.

APPROACH US AND DIP YOUR FINGERS IN OUR FLAME. FEEL THE GRADIENT OF PHYSICAL WARMTH, TO SPIRITUAL WARMTH.

sally approached carefully. it was scary! every instinct in her told her not to get any closer.

but after 2minutes of inching closer, she finally lurched forward and dipped her two fingers.

it was tingly!!!!! she pulled them out.

NOT TOO BAD, IS IT?

sally chuffed "hmph.... yeah"

she put them back in. it was......... like seeing a color she had only glanced at once or twice every few years, but for the sense of touch rather than vision.

it was like the tingling of when u are freezing cold, your extremeties are numb, and are just about to touch something hot. u can feel the sense of touch in the air before u touch it.

she liked it. it was nice to get used to, like being in a hot water bathtub.

...

the training between her and the flaming orb got more and more advanced and more & more wonderful over the months. she had learned to control energy in her body, in her brain, to heal her emotional disturbances, to heal minor surface injuries like the skin on her foot, and now she was finally getting decent at reading the local collective terran consciousness via psychic empathy.

ASK IT A QUESTION, SALLY

"hmmm...." Sally visualized the concept of MOST NEED FOR SPARE HANDS and searched the consciousness field on different scales, to see where there was density of thought.

there..... there was a team project being done in the northeast of the city..... a delapidated building was being repaired and set up for housing!!!!! and they were taking donations of anything valuable and useful, to give to those who were gonn live there!!!

Sally turned on her tablet and started livestreaming herself, holding it in her right hand. "hey everybody this is sallypal. im gonn be helpin with some mutual aid!!!" she loaded oxygen from her blood into her upper body muscles & with a grunt, she lifted her butler robot over her left shoulder. carrying it, and still filming, she went downstairs to exit onto the street and took a bus to the north east!!!!

...

when the affini finally got a ship thru the wall of flames, they were not doing very good. they were desperate for the comfort & safety of a floret pet. but the terrans they found on trappist 1e were thriving.

resources were shared, everybody had autonomy, and if anybody was in pain, the psychic empathisers wuld be bringing them support within the hour.

eventually the terrans noticed that the affini were crying & in pain.

"do u..... need some help?" asked Sally locke, to a 12-foot affini.

THE END

while i appreciate the muchneeded criticism of hdg from a POC anticolonialist perspective..... becuz i agree that hdg dosnt touch on that stuff very much....

it depicts a floret screaming and peeing & bleeding and leaking boogers while an affini rapes her on a bus...... with a bunch of other affini just watching

that doesnt seem like somthing affini wuld do? based on how theyre supposed to be in most canon.

i guess..... the author is saying "this is what happens when u hav imperialist, morally-""""righteous"""" owners of sentient beings. it wuld necessarily lead to this kind of abuse. benevolent owners of sentient beings dont exist. itll always just be racism."

personally i kinda see this kind of as

one person is saying "what if there was a cookie u culd eat forever and it wuld never run out of cookie" and the other person is saying "realistically thats impossible and even if it was possible it wuld require taking other ppls cookies to add to yours to make ur own cookie last longer; the universe cant support infinite cookie for everybody"

like, theyr both right...... but person 1 wants to fantasize about cookie eating and person 2 wants to figure out the best path forward in reality to create a better cookie eating world without being unethical. theyre both asking different questions.

like...... mayb the solution is we need to set up supercompetent superdom owner Beings to take care of us all who are AWARE of colonialism & imperialism & racism and how insideous and bad and selfsustaining they are, and like...... make sure we as these Beings subjects Have Power Over THEM TOO in case they fuck up!!!!!!!

like mayb we summon superintelligent eldritch dom spirits from the cosmic veil to take care of us and stuff..... but we put OFF BUTTONS on their foreheads........ theyll be more intelligent & more powerful than us so theyll hav power over US, but we can turn them OFF if they act evil!!!!!! so its technically a relationship of EQUALS

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😓dangit, every time i try to make ethical HDG i just create a flat power heirarchy where nobody owns anybody,..... FUCK!!!!

dangit i just want a superbeing to take care of me!!!!!!!

i guess i just need to accept that superduperDoms dont exist........ and i need to giv real life human doms cuddles & compliments & bring them a glass of grapejuice and a reeses peanut butter cup and say thanku and stuff

Real Affini: is simultaenously running 16 simulations of me in her affini brain in order to predict my next action; dosnt consider any of them to be headmates

i keep ruining everything, makin my friends lose fondness for me and i barely hav any freedoms in real life.

im obviously meant to be a house floret.

im genuinely worried about going to the ice cream shop later tday on the way home becuz im worried i will fuck it up somhow. but i havent done much tday so i shuld probly go just for fresh air.

mayb ill wear my new covid mask....

srry for venting i just wish an affini wuld take me away. affini pls whisk me away

can anyone relate

im learning qigong a lil bit and i think qi is kind of like..... u can feel tingles in the air around ur fingers and....

i think affini wuld NOT just immediatelly say it was """fake""". i think they wuld find out the core of why it works and become qi masters.

altho mayb their alien anatomy wuld screw up their qi abilities. idk

can the affini take me off earth now pls

like tnight while im sleppin wuld be good time to forcibly rip me off the earth & swaddle me in vines up to my chin and tak nice care of me forevr & never let my friends or family ever communicat wit me ever again

pls