u/petermobeter

i think their movies are often about yearning, and fantasizing. and i think they do queer horror.

ive never seen any of their movies.... i had 2 really bad meltdowns about I Saw The TV Glow without even seeing it so im not supposed to see it for my own wellbeing.

i wuld love to see an affini made using practical effects/puppets!!!!

EDIT: I BOUGHT "i saw the tv glow" OFF YOUTUBE AND WATCHD IT ON MY IPHONE!!!!!!! I DID IT!!!!?! I DONT NEED TO FEAR IT ANYMORE

LET ME OUT OF THE 2000s TERRAN LIFE VR SIMULATION, I WANN GO BACK TO REAL LIFE AS A FLORET WITH MY AFFINI OWNER!!!!! IM NOT BORED ANYMORE I PROMISE!!!!!! PLS BRING ME OUT OF THIS!!!! I LUV U AFFINI OWNER!!!!!! IM SRRY!!!!!!

i was eatin a big cup of shreddies cereal (i like eatin it from a cup instead of a bowl somtimes) and just as i was finishin it, a shreddie piece got stuck in my throat and i ended up projectile vomitin into the sink 5, mayb 6 times.....

i think if i was a floret, my affini wuld giv me special class Ms that gave her control of my gag muscles instead of me for a couple days just for my safety. cuz im a bit bad at swallowing safely the last few months.... i feel like i get stuff stuck in my throat like once a month or more....

🤷‍♀️ i wish affinis were real....

if i was a floret (with affini psychiatric medicine & affini day-to-day home support)....

wuld i then be able to do the impressiv stuff the floret do in the popular HDG literature, such as be a rocket propulsion engineer or be a gymnast or be a mathematician or be a cybersecurity programmer???

would domestication make me that much smarter & more capable?

on the flipside, are there florets who cant do anything remotely impressive? like i already know "florets are just treated like pets; they nap & snuggle & cant feed themself" but at the same time, it feels like they all hav like brain surgery or nascar racing as a hobby/self improvment pursuit. is that becuz domestication is so incredibly healing that it turns u into an ultra high achiever?? and florets with zero potential are nonexistent?

like humans craving fatty foods is becuz fatty foods are hard to find for wild animals & eating them helps them survive without food for a long time.

and the things that we find stereotypically conventionally attractive are all indicators of a future healthy baby & future healthy caregiving

and pattern recognition is some other survival bullshit

well.......

i think if advanced aliens were SERIOUSLY going to alter humans lives to be more fulfilled & happy & good.......

they wouldnt just abolish capitalism and feed our fucked up evolutionary survival habits endlessly to keep us happy

they would alter our forms & minds so that we wuldnt be stuck on these evolutionary survival habits in the first place!!!!!

like mayb they wuld make us not eat or drink, and not pursue sex or romance, and not think about our environments or comrades with the goal of "how can i exploit this environment or this comrade to make myself continue living for the indefinite future"

hell...... get rid of our emotions other than a few versions of "joy/happiness". no other emotions!!!!! not even curiosity. even empathy is just an evolutionary survival mechanism.

just make us happy chirping indestructable creatures who slowly walk around in the aliens' ship and mostly serve as stimtoy furniture.

i think only then wuld we be free of the cruelty & horror of a natural biological existence.

becuz...... i dont....... i dont like the label of "age regresser" put on me....... i dont really want to strictly be Part Of That Stuff....

but...... somtimes i....... i do kind of....... get emotionally screwed up........ and my voice changes....... and i get defensive and want to hide under a blanket....................

and...... im fine if a supercompetent superintelligent affini whos managing my care categorizes that as....... sproutin........ but........ I DONT WANN TALK BOUT IT!!!!!!!!!! WITH ANYBODY!!!!!!!!!!! ITS UNCOMFORTBL!!!!!!!!!! I DONT WANN PPL TO POINT IT OUT!!!!!!! i just wann hide under a blanket........

does anybody kno what i mean??????

i cant handle bein open about it......... it makes me feel so horribl.........

but........ mayb...... an affini can........ categoriz it...... without talkin to me bout it😣😣😣😣😣......

pls tell me u understand this feelins......

i luv dowgs.

so i got aster digitized so that my affini could do TF shenanigans to me for enrichment, but one thing i requested was a button installed in my digital UI that i culd activate to get the sensation of sippin a medium-sized gulp of high quality chocolate milk into my virtually-simulated mouth and then i could willfully swallow it at my leisure.

but it was so good & i luvd it so much.....i figured out if i kept the chocolate milk in my virtual mouth for 23 hours and 59 minutes and 59 seconds and then one second later (when it's supposed to automatically erase the chocolate milk from my mouth just in case of this exact scenario) swallowed it, i could softlock the chocolate milk function in swallowing mode without removing my ability to breathe virtual air.

so i could just keep chugging it forever!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!

mistress pansy elkberry figured it out in 19 minutes........

she took away the chocolate milk function while she reprograms it to be less hackable. NO NO NO NO NO I WANT MY CHOCKy MILK NOOOO NO😡😡😡😡😡😡😖😖😖😖😖😢😢😢😢

i can sense pride & disappointment from her at the same time but also luvvv..... like always.........

its the first time iv done computer programmy stuff in like a decade (i briefly did some gamedev stuff when i was in the Terran Accord disability welfare content creation program where u create viral internet content for food & shelter & medicine) so i think thats why shes proud of me

might have to be a VR exclusiv body i guess 😔

also might be a lil messy droppin blobs everywhere when u go for a walk, or get sucked into a drain

i know spectrum jellies exist..... mayb a terran could become a humanoid spectrum jelly?

SPOILERS!!!!!

like......... i like the idea of being taken care of by supercompetent superpowerful superintelligent drugmonster beings who occassionally (or even frequently) decieve me, but only becuz they know what will make me thrive better than i do.....

but....... >!it seems like a lot of iconic hdg fics hav a narrative climax where the floret is pushed/coerced by their affini to willingly give up their desire to even!< >!hav control over their own identity or ambitions or preferences......!<

>!like it goes from "iv ceded control over my circumstances and im allowing my affini to help me psychologically, but i still value my ability to hold core beliefs about myself" allllllll the way to "i no longer care whether im capable of holding consistent core beliefs, the affini can control that and everythin else, i giv up"!<

>!i wuld prefer to read a fic where the floret isnt dominated quite to that level. like, its not like i value feralism/rebelliousness that much..... i myself wuld probly be a willing volunteer for domestication.... i just........ i dont like that final step of, as the famous fic divarication puts it, "the fire going out". if anything i wuld want my affini to nurture my "fire" and aim it toward good things.... u know what i mean??!<

>!mayb im crazy i dunno. i wonder if im just failing to get off on some core kink thats core to the setting. like im weird or somthin......!<

>!if i was gonn hav an ego death, i WULDNT want anybody to take advantage of my ego death and sculpt me into someone id previously disagree with. i much more get off on having an ego death while i hav someone who takes care of me comforting me & helpin me get thru my ego death and recovering from it. u know?!<

>!srry. does anybody get what im sayin?!<

>!do u hav any hdg fic recommendations where the submissiv character DOSNT get their soulfire snuffed out in that way iv described? hdg fics where the submissiv character gets to keep themself a lil bit, so to speak?!<

>!mayb i am a feralist idk!<

games like that might hav too much potential for emotional frustration/pain for the average floret

mayb in the floret cut, when u die close to the endpoint, theres an hourlong video generated all about how well u did and how good a gamer u are and whoa, remember when u survived that ambush???? that was so badass!!!!!! but now ur dead..... heres ur funeral Wow 8000 monsters showed up to pay their respects...... wow u really dont need to play this game for a few days becuz u did sooooo good right????? u deserve a vacation becuz u did soooo good.

mayb newly discovered sophont civilizations should demand that affini representatives be drunk on a foreign substance thru their vines during treaty negotiations.

might give the newly discoverd sophont civilizations an edge

should i demand to be treated in ways i approve of retro- and pro- actively at every opportunity, and hope they listen?

should i actually avoid demanding such things, to reduce the chance of attracting an affini particularly attracted to unconsensual willbreaking?

should i demand to be broken?

should i act aloof and uninterested?

should i act bratty? should i try to show competence at independence? should i just be myself/be honest?

what is the best route for attracting a really supportiv affini who cares about the journey (not just the destination); an affini who cares about floret dignity?