A number of months ago, I had a busy day where I had my annual checkup at the doctor and also had a haircut on the same day. As my day wrapped up and I walked out of my haircut, I realized that those two interactions had given me more female touch than I'd had in more than three weeks. Honestly, it was heartbreaking. Now, I'm not blameless for the relationship getting to this point. I had some REALLY fucked up illusions as to what marriage was, what sex was, and how to create physical and emotional safety. Individual and couples therapy has helped a ton but I still have a long way to go.
I have resentments that I need to let go of. I have some level of co-dependency that I need to let go of. And I need to truly embrace the idea that I'm the only person that can make me happy. Yeah, I guess I'm a bit of a work in progress but at some level, aren't we all? I guess I'm just looking for someone kind, sweet, generous, and who might learn to appreciate me someday. I've become numb to the feelings of desire and appreciation. I'm new-ish to this so please be okay with that.
More about me? I'm short (5'6") and on the chubby side. I lost 40 pounds thinking she would want me more (spoiler - she didn't) and gained 20 of it back. Despite some extra padding, I stay active and go to the gym at least 4-5 times a week. I do want to lose the weight again at some point but find myself lacking the motivation at times. I have a good job, I'm sarcastic to a fault, passionate, driven, and kind. I don't play video games, wish that I more time to read and travel, and love a good meal and a good cocktail. I have a job that I deeply care about but realize that work is not the most important thing in my life. That would be my kids and my health.
About you? You're smart, kind, sweet, and generous. You're a mom who is around my age. Brunettes are good. So are curves. You're hoping to find someone who sees you for who you really are. You're funny and feel like you have so much love to give - if only you had someone to give it to. Local-ish is good but I'm open to something online if we connect.
Hope to hear from you soon.