Long story short my man was away for 7 days I was going insane without dick so I got on here and found me a dude. Just hours before my man was expecting to be home i was being railed senseless in multiple positions with MULTIPLE CREAMPIES on my man's side of the bed letting it ooze out on his blanket and his pillow 😄 🤣 he came home 40 mins after dude left and laid down in it!

First time and only time ill step out on the relationship only fair since he fucked a girl in our bed while I was gone for 21 days! I dont feel bad

This is going to fucking blows but its time for me to give it my all and try my damnest to achieve sobriety and leave Tina in my past! This devil drug has a huge hold on me and what I thought I could control is spiraling & I need to get ahold of it before I end up hurt, in jail, in the hospital or worse in the grave. Not going to lie im scared shitless to endure this path. I have endured this path a time or two and have had some substantial amount of time under my belt but I got involved with an individual 2 and half years ago that would bring it around telling me just do it one time it wont hurt and I was in a very dark time in my life where I didnt care what happened to me so I caved and made the choice to use. I have attempted to regain sobriety multiple times in the last two amd half years but this individual who i love dearly doesnt support my attempts of sobriety and deeply encourages it as he doesnt see himself being an addict. Its taken time for me to realize he encourages it because he doesnt want to be the only one sick in addiction. This relationship is very toxic and he is a full blown narcissist so there is abuse involved but im slowly working towards the freedom from him but it takes time as resources are limited in where im at for domestic violence mental health and addiction. I know I will only stay in the cycles of addiction and violence if I stay.

Tonight im asking for some positive encouragement, positive vibes and how to cope with being without something I used daily to numb myself with. Im so scared!