u/raptor093

I had a less than happy childhood and that brought with it its share of issues that I continue to struggle with on a daily basis. Such as cptsd, depression, anxiety, chronic pain, negative self-image/esteem/confidence.

Well recently I’ve been going out and meeting new people specifically in the kink community cause I figured that’s the best place to find a mommy. one such person very quickly became my “comfort person” for the social kink group meetings we ended up going to. Fast forward a week and she’s asking me about my interests in kink, more specifically why I want the things I want and trying to understand me more, I end up reading her my impact statement from therapy (made the poor girl cry when I did). but she was extremely empathetic and said she actually had similar experiences. Fast forward two more days and she shared her story with me, and we became even deeper friends. By this time she understood that I was very insecure about myself and that I believed I was unloveable, that I felt like I wasn’t trying hard enough and that I was so tired of fighting my own head alone without any respite from the storm. She also realized I hadn’t ever been held and comforted, since I was a small child and took it upon herself to give me an opportunity to do just that.

We cuddled, she held me close, let me snuggle into her chest, started running her hands through my hair and started telling me how proud she was of me, how strong I was for surviving everything and for working so hard to heal, how amazing of a person I’ve become and how proud of me the little hurt child inside me would be of me for never giving up. How amazing it is that I have been through so much in my life and instead of being vengeful and angry I became kinder than anyone else around me, and how that little boy and the older me didn’t deserve any of the things that happened to me, she wished she could go in there and give him a hug and remove all the lies that I learned to believe about myself and replace them with all the truths that are the reality of who I am.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt so at peace and comforted in my life, I cried and cried and just felt so wanted and protected for the first time in a very long time. Not being judged for wanting to be treated with kindness and love, not being judged for crying or being tired from carrying the world on my back. Just allowed to melt into her warm embrace and exist. She might not be a mommy domme but she showed me what it’s like to meet someone who can see all of me and instead of running the other way she wanted to help show me what it feels like when someone cares enough to stay. For that I will be eternally grateful. Keep going the course! It will pay off if you put in the effort!

Firstly this is not an ad, this is actual irl stuff that’s going on within my life.

With that out of the way, I’ve been going to a local kink groups meeting for the last month and as I’ve gotten comfortable with them I’ve finally started sharing what I’m into. Well last night one of my friends was asking some of the people who were sitting around us what they were into, and I offhandedly said “oh yeah I haven’t told y’all anything about what I’m into yet.” One of the ladies immediately turned towards me and said “ you’re right you haven’t, what are you into?” I immediately turned beet red and had to get myself together and say it, but I did. She immediately extended her hand and said “Hi, I’m a mommy!” Then the lady next to me turned towards me and did the exact same thing! My entire face was red at this point and I’m pretty sure my brain was short circuiting.

So I got to talking with them about how they are whenever they’re “mommy” and one of them is more into some stuff that I’m not so sure I want to try (little play specifically, there isn’t anything wrong with that just to be clear it’s just something I’m not so sure about yet), but the other one is into it without any little play (which is what I want to start with as I’m more comfortable with it) but she’s also a gentle domme, she likes to assist her subs with things they may be having trouble with in their everyday life, she likes to be close and comfort them, and give them reassurance when they need it. She’s not so much into the “bdsm” stuff but more so into the D/s power exchange, and to top it all off she’s also into ABF and she’s currently producing. So not only did I meet a mommy way sooner than I expected to, I met two in one night, one that seems to be a good fit for current, very new me and the other one that I can explore with.

And the best part to me is that both of them are gonna be at the group party this weekend! So I’m gonna have a chance to talk with them more and maybe even get my first experience with a mommy! I’m so nervous and excited I think I’m gonna vibrate out of my own skin 😂

So yeah I just wanted to share with you guys cause I don’t have a lot of people around me I can share the good news with!

Hello everyone, so I have an interesting dilemma and I would appreciate any of your feedback regarding this.

I think a Mommy Dom fits what I’m looking for, however I’m not so certain I’m a little, or even a middle. That’s not to say that I think a Mommy Dom could only Dom somebody who identifies as one of those types. I’m just not sure what I fit into, I know I’m definitely not dominant myself, so definitely a sub. I like the idea of being called cute pet names (mommy’s little boy, mommy’s little angel, gumdrop, or whatever else a mommy might come up with). I might fall into the service sub category a bit because as far as I’m concerned anyone kind enough to treat me with the care I’m looking for deserves the world and I’ll give it to her by any means necessary. I also like praise and things like that.

Maybe I’m just too new to all of this to really understand where I fit, but that’s why I figured it wouldn’t hurt to ask. If you have any suggestions or advice to put me in the right direction please do share! Thank you!

Hi there y’all tomorrow I’m gonna be going to my first ever munch / group meeting for one of my local kink groups.

I wanted to ask those of you that have been to meetings like this what your suggestions are for me (mostly to help with my nerves lol). But also what are some things that I should potentially either do myself to make myself stand out or look for to help me spot that potential person (to be clear I’m not expecting to find them at this meeting but I guess I’m just nervous and wanting to make sure I don’t miss a potential signal from someone in the future lol)

Anyway, with that said thank you in advance for any advice you may have I greatly appreciate it ❤️